Here I abide

I saw to what God has called me
I rejoiced and ran ahead to embrace it
But quickly faced what appeared to be
a cliff, drop off, chiseled rock

My spirit gasped as I stopped in my tracks
Suddenly my joyful smile left me void
It really seems my faith lacks
This was your idea remember, Lord?

Anxious to move ahead,
Pushing on with the progress
I have nothing to dread!
Let's get this show started

"Lord I know You have a plan"
My prayers plead to silence
"Lead me and keep me in your hand"
And I moved on with my ideas

In search I turned to the left
Right into a dead end road
But I mustn't go back to the cleft
For that would take much too long

Heading to the right
I found storms of every kind
Maybe taking this road wasn't so bright,
So I turned back bruised

Tired and worn I crawl back there
And see his plan, my desire ahead
I'm getting nowhere! I cry in despair
Why did You think I could do this Lord?

This is the end and I'm not this strong
To expect me to continue here is beyond me
I've prayed for your help for so long
Why are You so deaf to my plea?

Alas the Lord turned to me
And I realized His silence had a purpose
He was waiting on my heart to be
Ready to listen, to be broken

"Be still child, have I not promised
To get you to the other side?
Then just wait and let me lead
Stand still, I will move in time."

So in this desert I make my abode,
And here I shall remain
Until the time is, and He builds a road
Or gives me wings
-Jessica Traylor-