Wednesday, November 5, 2008

O bomb a...

Habakkuk's prayer to the Lord after he saw a vision of Jerusalem destroyed:


"Though the fig tree should not blossom

And there be no fruit on the vines,

Though the yield of the olive should fail

And the fields produce no food,

Though the flock should be cut off from the fold

And there be no cattle in the stalls,

Yet I will exult in the LORD,

I will rejoice in the God of my salvation.

The Lord GOD is my strength,

And He has made my feet like hinds' feet,

And makes me walk on my high places.

For the choir director, on my stringed instruments."

--Habakkuk 3:17-18

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Change in the Air



There's something talkin' in the wind
Whispering through the trees
That feeling in my bones again
Just puts me right at ease
It takes me back to all the times
I' ve been here before
But crossroads, old familiar signs
Tell me there's something more

Can't explain, there's something
strange about the early fall
It's comfort leaving me without a care
I remain but everything around me hears the call
And tonight I feel a change in the air

The leaves are turning, soon they'll fall
There's a norther blowing in
The memories flowin', I recall
Those changes in the wind
But I can never try to understand
There's nothing you can hold in your hand

Can't explain, there's something
strange about the early fall
It's comfort leaving me without a care
I remain but everything around me hears the call
And tonight I feel a change in the air

Yes I'll surely feel a change in the air

Friday, September 19, 2008

A Woman's Question



"A Woman's Question" by Lena Lathrop

"Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the hand above?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life
And a woman's wonderful love.

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.
You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: "It is very good"

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way."

Monday, September 8, 2008

Clumsy


You think I’d have it down by now
Been practicin’ for thirty {nineteen} years
I should have walked a thousand miles
So what am I still doin’ here
Reachin’ out for that same old piece of forbidden fruit
I slip and fall and I knock my halo loose
Somebody tell me what’s a boy {girl} supposed to do?

I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You’re sayin’ You love me
And You’re still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
‘Cause You’re makin’ me holy
You’re still makin’ me holy, yeah

I’m gonna get it right this time
I’ll be strong and I’ll make You proud
I’ve prayed that prayer a thousand times
But the rooster crows and my tears roll down (again)
Then You remind me You made me from the dust
And I can never, no never, be good enough
And that You’re not gonna let that come between us

I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You’re sayin’ You love me
And You’re still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
‘Cause You’re makin’ me holy
You’re still makin’ me holy, yeah

From where I stand
Your holiness is up so high I can never reach it
My only hope is to fall on Jesus

I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You’re sayin’ You love me
And You’re still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
‘Cause You’re makin’ me holy
You’re still makin’ me holy, yeah
--Chris Rice

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Tribute to Chancey



I LOVE MY BAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!


MY bay.........................

*falling hearts*


Sometimes she takes the bit and gets too strong
And sometimes when I neck rein she turns all wrong
But right or wrong she's right beneath me, like only a friend would be,
And that's close enough to perfect for me

The other horses get their kicks from her hind legs,
Course she don't like it when I kick her insteads
Oh I know she's not an angel, but how boring would that be?
She's close enough to perfect for me

She comes to me and nudges
And follows me around
She don't have to say it
I can see it in her eyes

Don't you worry bout my horse,
What you think she ought to be,
She's close enough to perfect for me.

Sometimes she'll spook and take you by surprise
And you will land hard if you don't compromise...
She's all the horse I've ever wanted
And all the one I need
She's close enough to perfect for me.

She comes to me and nudges
And follows me around
She don't have to say it
I can see it in her eyes

Don't you worry bout my horse,
What you think she ought to be,
She's close enough to perfect for me.

--Jessica Traylor lyric substitute for "Close Enough To Perfect" by Alabama

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

You save my life


I was driving down the road today
Song came on I haven't heard in a few years
Sobered I shifted and turned it up
As memories tortured me with my past

Kneeling on a hardwood floor
Three o'clock still sleep is my enemy
Streams of lies filled my head
Screaming at darkness, alone and empty.

Nightmares agonized my soul
Demons jeered "my destiny"
Haunted just like a prey
To be caught in traps of illusions

Just three hours of sleep
And tears for food
Still I must be secluded, trust no one
In my foolishness I fought alone

"I must grieve," sounds convincing
Any explanation to excuse my insufficency
Bleeding inside, trembling
Surely I was a captive of his lies.

My days were rushed,
Just to get through
So I could take off my mask
And be a zombie to the world

"Leave me alone, please" I said
To die in my pain was my murmur
The grips of death squeezed
Quickly air fled from me

My heart called You
and then You came
Giving me light
I saw Your mercy and grace!

You stretched out your arms to me
I walked by You and believed
Resting in Your love,
In the fullness of peace

I'm always confounded how You are there
In the darkest of times, if I just look!
Though winds blow hard and clouds are dark
You say peace and my heart is still.

I praise You, for Your presence
Has filled my heart with song!
And turned my mourning to joy,
Changing my death to life.


It's when I cannot talk to You...

You talk to me.

It's when I think You're gone...

You appear.

It's when I'm angry in fright...

You comfort.

It's when I've collapsed from fighting on my own...

You offer strength.

It's when I'm not sufficient...

You suffice.

It's when I'm dying,

You save my life.



~Jessica Traylor

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

When Kids Speak...


God,
Please help me to become a good housewife and mother and wife when I grow up if it be your will for me to be married! Help me in my cooking this summer. I love you. ~Jessica 6/20/01

Jesus,
Please help me to pray more often. I praise you for what you are! I love you! Help me to be orderly and neat and to love you with all my heart. Please give me advise on the backyard Bible club. Please give me peace about it one way or another! I love you! ~Jessica 6/23/01

Dear God,
Thanks for all. I love you so much!!! Please help me to be a witness for you this day as I walk in my every day life. We are planning to do a lot of cleaning again today. That will be fun! I love you and praise you and thank you for giving me another day to live for you and witness for you. Please help me to be a good witness! Help me! Talk to you later in the day! ~Jessica 6/27/01

Lord keep me from making the mistakes I'm most prone to when temptation comes. I confess that what I think is necessary, smart, or personally beneficial is so often only the beautiful wrapping on sin. So please, keep me far from evil! Keep me safe from the pain and grief that sin brings. For the dangers that I can't see, or the ones that I think I can risk because of my experience (pride and carelessness), put up a supernatural barrier. Protect me, Father, by your power! I love you! ~Jessica 7/1/01

Lord help me to find out if Katie's saved Lord, she didn't give me a real answer, help me! ~Jessica 7/8/01

I've been trying not to think about Missouri, but pray about it. We are going to Missouri Friday to look around and for Dad to see about the bank. I love you so much Lord! Lead me in the way that is right! Help me, tell me the answer. Help me not to get too excited before I know the answer. 1st of September is when the job starts, whether it's Daddy's job or not I don't know, but I only want your guidance, tell me Lord! I love you and I'll be praying! ~ Jessica P.S. Thanks for helping me with my report!! 8/2/01

Dear Father,
I love you! Thanks for helping me love you more, Lord, I'm waiting for Daniel Josiah (((this is the name my mother had picked out for her next son, except she never had one))), he hasn't come yet. I love you, help me have patience. ~Jessica 9/1/01

Jesus,
Thanks for lifting my burdens, I feel so much peace!! Please, I beg for a Jabez appointment tomorrow. ~Jessica 9/31/01

Dear Lord,
Yesterday I got up at 5:00 so today I didn't but I did do my math before we left on the field trip with the Schmidts with your help. Misty came over today, we talked, but not very much because they were only here about 45 minutes I think. Please help me help her grow in you! I love you and praise you for letting her be my friend. Please help me to grow also and help my SPARKS, I love each one, they are so darling! Most of the time. Help me Lord to witness to Reagan, she is so darling! Love you so much and I've been looking for a Jabez appointment! ~Jessica P.S. Sorry for the bad handwriting, help my future husband to live a good and pleasing life to you also! 10/3/01

Dear Daddy,
Thanks so much for giving me everything that you did. Please help me to keep praying, and reading my Bible and studying it and having so much peace like I have had these last few days. Help me to do better on not irritating people and arguing though. Lord you have done so much for me and these last few days you have blessed me enormously. I just hope and pray that I will always have this kind of peace. Help me be diligent to study God's Word, pray, keep right with you, and do my school work! I love you! See you in heaven! Love, Jessica. 3/6/02


Tuesday, June 17, 2008

I'm in a hurry

We have a million things to do every day, we got work, school, homework, appointments, plans, schedules, shopping, church, practice, oh yeah, gotta eat too...sometimes that optional. We are all going different directions, always in a hurry, rush it, there is so much to do! Fast food not fast enough, 1 hour photo develop just ain't worth the time. Why does that girl keep asking me to talk to her, she knows I'm slam packed?? Wait, when do I have time to sleep? How could I have forgotten to feed my dog AGAIN? And what do we do in our free time? Ipods, cell phones, TV, computer, radio, there is never a noiseless moment, GOOD GRIEF!!! No wonder there are no real families left in our country!!!

I'm in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life's no fun
All I really got to do is live and die
But I'm in a hurry and don't know why

Can't be late, I leave in plenty of time
Shakin' hands with the clock
I can't stop
I'm on a roll and I'm ready to rock

Don't know why I have to drive so fast
My car has nothing to prove
It's not new
But it'll do zero to sixty in five point two

Oh, I hear a voice
That says I'm running behind
Better pick up my pace
It's a race and there ain't no room for someone in second place

I'm in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life's no fun
All I really got to do is live and die
But I'm in a hurry and don't know why
--Alabama--


Got to keep doing, keep going, push push push push...until guess what? You break. Then you turn to the Lord (hopefully) and wonder where He has been. He ain't gone no where friend. Back on your rollercoaster and the race is on again. Run run run, til you're completely out of gas and back and square 1 and the cycle continues. And we wonder why we're so stressed? haha. What ever happened to life?


STOP









How can you hear His voice with so much noise? How can you say you are following God when you cannot even see him for all the activities? How can you say He is your best friend when you don't put time into talking to Him? It's so ironic, why do you want God to save time for you if you don't save time for Him?

Slow down. Find your peace with God and keep it, that relationship needs maintenance. Turn off the radio, off the noise, off the commotion, maybe even off the lights and get real with God. Or go take a walk in the starlight, that always does the trick for me, but watch out for panthers! :P You need time to think, you need time to talk to other people about the important things, you need time to play with your children, your siblings, to give your Mom or Dad a much needed break...a foot massage or nice walk and talk. Go take the weekend off, go to the lake, pick up a line go fishin, leave that radio off for goodness sake!!! Speak sweet, find out how other people are feeling. Spend it with your family, with your friends, show them you love them. Grab a pizza, pick up that Bible, bring a notebook you just might want to write somethin down! Hug a friend, smile at a stranger, talk to your family, PRAY with your family. Snuggle up and watch a movie with hot chocolate and popcorn, pull out a good family book and read out loud in the living room, or just sit around and talk! Do we even know how to talk to our family anymore? Have a nice long bubble bath, or milk bath even better! Play with the kids in your life, rock the baby to sleep you might decide you don't want to put her down. Pull out that favorite pie recipe, surprise somebody. Smile, laugh, sing. Enjoy life, it's only so long. Live as if today is a gift, and you've got eternity to think about what you did with it. Somehow the important things become more clear.


Friday, June 6, 2008

1 year old?!!

McCabe is a year old TODAY!!! Happy birthday sweety! My how time flies, I am shocked. :D






Monday, June 2, 2008

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Forever...


I could give you what you want,
It sounds awful fun to me.
But why waste today
On what I’ll throw away tomorrow?
For I could never give you forever.

I hear you tell me to come with you,
Swimming, movies, dinner and dance.
But I’m sorry I just will not be
What you want me to be,
For I could never give you forever.

You want me more than a friend,
You want a companion for life.
But why do you call me Darlin’
When I’ve told you
I could never give you forever?

I could love you I suppose,
I could mother your children, sure.
But I won’t for it’s defying my very existence
To do all for the glory of the Lord.
For I could never give you forever...

With no vision the people perish,
It’s nothing against you.
But I will not stand with a man
Who is not wrapped up in Christ.
So I could never give you forever.

Don’t make me wish for Dom,
Yes I long for my prince
But you are not he.
Sorry man your time is up,
Never could I give you forever.
--Jessica Traylor--

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

He washed my eyes with tears


I love old hymns, there is so much behind them. This is one of my favorites, it speaks for itself:

He washed my eyes with tears that I might see,
The broken heart I had was good for me;
He tore it all apart and looked inside,
He found it full of fear and foolish pride.
He swept away the things that made me blind
And then I saw the clouds were silver lined;
And now I understand 'twas best for me
He washed my eyes with tears that I might see.

He washed my eyes with tears that I might see
The glory of Himself revealed to me;
I did not know that He had wounded hands
I saw the blood He spilt upon the sands.
I saw the marks of shame and wept and cried;
He was my substitute for me He died;
And now I'm glad He came so tenderly;
And washed my eyes with tears that I might see.
--Julie Lee Stone--

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Why do you always have to have a subject line?

Today is the second day back in my old office, in the front desk where people come in and out all the time. In a way it's happy to be back and get to see people some... but then I'd forgotten all the glitches of the front desk like continually being called sugar and hunny and sweetheart and baby and beautiful ...or on the other hand getting hung up on or performing on demand when I'm in the middle of a project. *sighs* Now I remember why I like it in my little corner where I can shut the door and focus on my work. My chair in the back has arms and I constantly rest my arms on them and lean back...my chair in the front has no arms and I've almost landed on the floor twice today trying to lean on my non-existent arms. hehehe I was in an important convo with a client who was on the other side of the desk from me and all the sudden I leaned over and was like "WOOOOOOOOOOW!" *falls out of chair* lol

But on the other hand me being back in the front means we're done with tax season. YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! That makes me so happy. God is great!!!

Monday, April 7, 2008

My Confession


My prayer to the Lord (I love this song!):



My Confession

I have been blind, unwilling
To see the true love You're giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I'm on my knees confessing

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

You are the air that I breathe.
You're the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?

Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart
Falling into place.

I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

Hear my confession
--Josh Groban--

Thursday, April 3, 2008

awwwwww





Isn't he so sweet??? *sighs happily* McCabe is getting so big. He's such a little man. awwwwww.

Monday, March 31, 2008

Solomon's Praises

"O LORD, the God of Israel, there is no God like You in heaven above or on earth beneath, keeping covenant and showing lovingkindness to Your servants who walk before You with all their heart, who have kept with Your servant, my father David, that which You have promised him; indeed, You have spoken with Your mouth and have fulfilled it with Your hand as it is this day." 1 Kings 8:23-24

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

I'm sure missing you


I'm stressed; going all the time

My life is way too packed

I just want to hear your laugh

Sometimes I don't know what to do

Yeah I'm sure missing you



My days are long and hard,

Work eats my mind, time, and life

I'm tired, but I cannot sleep

Tonight I'm crazy, lonely, and blue

And I'm sure missing you



He keeps me and

I know it's true

That with Him alone

I will make it through,

But I'm sure missing you



If two hearts were meant

To be together

Then why am I alone?

Yet not alone, God's here too

Somehow I'm still missing you

Friday, March 21, 2008

The Light

Tell me, how do you explain

LIGHT to a blind person?


How do you explain color to someone

who has seen nothing but black?


Maybe if I could figure that out it

would be easier to explain



MY LORD to a lost person.

Monday, March 17, 2008

Time to Recooperate


Sometimes you just need a nice long ride to rejuvenate yourself to return to the stress of life; to get time to pray, rest to think, and room to breathe.


"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." James 1:2-4

Monday, March 10, 2008

Appearance



"There are women who are not beautiful but only look that way." Karl Kraus

Thursday, March 6, 2008

HOMESCHOOLING ILLEGAL


NO WAY!!!!!!!!! Today California outlawed home schooling! It is now illegal to home school if you live in California! I am so upset.

http://onenewsnow.com/Legal/Default.aspx?id=69177

That is so sad. Don't forget to be praying for these United States, I tell you what we're going downhill fast. I wouldn't be surprised if homeschooling were illegal all over the US in 10 or 20 years. This will push many kids into school, and push others to move; ultimately creating a mass exit of some and merging of other homeschoolers into more children of the government.

Please be praying for the Christian homeschoolers in CA, for strength and wisdom for them and that they would stick with the godly principles that brought them to homeschooling in the beginning. Crying or Very sad I feel like going into mourning.

Monday, March 3, 2008

House of the Lord


"One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek Him in His temple."
Psalm 27:4

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Names

If I had a child one day what would I name it? Glad you asked! I just happen to have a list, for starters at least. You should try name making, it's great fun! I have a special meaning (italic) for each name, and a verse that goes with it...then for a few of them I have a special person (in bold) that goes with the verse and meaning whose life inspired the name or meaning of the name. Meaning their life displays the verse predominantly or they have been a major factor in teaching me the significance of the verse.


  1. Jonathan Cade -- gift from God, pure *Jonathan Traylor

“Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing…Every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow.” James 1:2-4,17


  1. Alaina Zelene – bright, sunshine *Rachelle Traylor

“Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.” Matthew 5:16


  1. Stephen Garrett – crowned one, to watch

“But being full of the Holy Spirit, he gazed intently into heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God; and he said, ‘Behold, I see the heavens opened up and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God.’” Acts 7:55-56


  1. Lynda Ruth – beautiful, companion friend *Linda Schmidt

“Then the King will desire your beauty. Because He is your Lord, bow down to Him.” Psalms 45:11


  1. Faith Destiny – to trust, for which you were meant *MWS II

“Commit your works to the LORD and your plans will be established.” Proverbs 16:3


  1. Mercy Lorén – compassion, crowned with laurel *Charissa Traylor

??? not sure, still gathering thoughts on the verse here.


  1. Joses Timothy – who pardons, to honor God

“For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, And abundant in lovingkindness to all who call upon You.” Psalms 86:5


  1. Havilah Koren – land of great worth, maiden

“The name of the first is Pishon; it flows around the whole land of Havilah, where there is gold. The gold of that land is good; the bdellium and the onyx stone are there.” Genesis 2:11-12


  1. Ada Grace – prosperous happy, grace of God *Mom

“The chief jailer did not supervise anything under Joseph's charge because the LORD was with him; and whatever he did, the LORD made to prosper.” Genesis 39:23


  1. Kadin Trace – companion, brave *Dad

“Therefore let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16


  1. Kyla Michelle – lovely, who is like God? *Misty Schmidt

“How lovely are Your dwelling places, O LORD of hosts!” Ps. 84:1

Sunday, February 24, 2008

Here I abide


I saw to what God has called me
I rejoiced and ran ahead to embrace it
But quickly faced what appeared to be
a cliff, drop off, chiseled rock

My spirit gasped as I stopped in my tracks
Suddenly my joyful smile left me void
It really seems my faith lacks
This was your idea remember, Lord?

Anxious to move ahead,
Pushing on with the progress
I have nothing to dread!
Let's get this show started

"Lord I know You have a plan"
My prayers plead to silence
"Lead me and keep me in your hand"
And I moved on with my ideas

In search I turned to the left
Right into a dead end road
But I mustn't go back to the cleft
For that would take much too long

Heading to the right
I found storms of every kind
Maybe taking this road wasn't so bright,
So I turned back bruised

Tired and worn I crawl back there
And see his plan, my desire ahead
I'm getting nowhere! I cry in despair
Why did You think I could do this Lord?

This is the end and I'm not this strong
To expect me to continue here is beyond me
I've prayed for your help for so long
Why are You so deaf to my plea?

Alas the Lord turned to me
And I realized His silence had a purpose
He was waiting on my heart to be
Ready to listen, to be broken

"Be still child, have I not promised
To get you to the other side?
Then just wait and let me lead
Stand still, I will move in time."

So in this desert I make my abode,
And here I shall remain
Until the time is, and He builds a road
Or gives me wings
-Jessica Traylor-

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Home Schooler

You might be a home school graduate if:

My thoughts are in (parenthesizes)

1. You went to school in your PJs.
2. Your biology lab consisted of assisting in your sibling's birth.
3. Your stacks of books to check out was taller than the librarian.
4. Your PE came from chasing little toddlers around.
5. Your school bus was a 9 passenger van.
6. You considered school work after lunch to be cruel and unusual punishment.
7. Your father ever told the check-out lady at Wal-Mart, "We're on a field trip."
8. Your social life was viewed by some to be one rung lower than that of a Benedictine monk.
9. Your teacher ever wrote your report card on a napkin.
10. You had to move dirty laundry off your desk before you could start school.
11. The signatures on your diploma all end with the same last name.
12. Everyone else in the world was referred to as "Non-homies."
13. Your Mother's wardrobe consisted primarily of denim jumpers.
14. Your first real date was on your honeymoon.
15. The word 'homework' sounded like a foreign language.
16. Your yearbook was also your babybook.
17. A snow day meant that you had to shovel the driveway after you finished your school work.
18. You enjoyed the pastime of watching public school kids walk home from school.
19. You had to look at the clock to see if you could call your public school friends yet.
20. You thought that "public-school-kid" was an insult of the highest degree. (HAHAHAHAHA)
21. Health class consisted of eating breakfast.
22. You had to decide what year you wanted to graduate.
23. You were always late but just called it "homeschooler time."
24. You can remember nearly every single day you went to public school.
25. The teacher could kiss the principal, and no one thought it was unusual.
26. You got to school and the teacher asked you if you've done all your chores.
27. You are one of the best people in the world!
28. Your friends talked about waiting in line for seven hours to try out the new roller coaster in town, so you went and waited five minutes on a school day.
29. Your school lunches contained any food item easily identifiable to a person without a microscope and extensive scientific knowledge.
30. You find it entertaining to listen to Beethoven while in math class.
31. Gym class was actually a fun activity like swimming.
32. You're on a first-name basis with the clerks at the local bookstore.
33. The closest thing to a bully in your school was your slightly strange two-year-old sister.
34. Your friends complained about a hard day at school, and you had to keep yourself from giving them "that homeschooling smile." (LOL!!!! This one is SO true!!)
35. You heard the phrase "socialization" and laughed because you had more friends and knew more people than your public school friends.
36. Your school dress code was: No Nudity Allowed
37. You could eat while you took a test
38. You were firmly convinced that high school causes brain damage (Yup! along with syncopation, hehe)
39. You slept in till 9 am on weekdays but got up at 7 am on Sundays
40. You have more siblings than sweaters
41. You knew what a 'Park Day' is
42. Your favorite author was Jane Austen, G.K. Chesterton, or P.G. Wodehouse
43. You have ever suffered through Saxon Math (amen, there should be some kind of tax credit for that...)
44. All birthdays were school holidays
45. You have ever finished your schoolwork before breakfast
46. You taunted high schooled friends during finals week
47. You spent more than 2 hours each day reading and writing....voluntarily
48. You are 16 years of age or older and still have never been on a date
49. You knew what "Unit Studies" were (totally!)
50. You had more than 2 science experiments going on in your room
51. You knew more than 1 Latin paradigm
52. You have ever spent the entire school day in pajamas
53. You regularly utilized words such as "malingering", "tedious", and "indubitably"
54. You considered sled riding phys ed
55. Your IQ is greater than your weight
56. You checked out more than 10 books each time you visited the library
57. You have ever attempted to teach yourself physics
58. When asked about your GPA, you said, "Oh, probably 4.0." ( *nods knowingly* )
59. You had no idea as to what rock bands were popular then...but you could recite all of the stages of cellular mitosis. ... (in order)
60. You believed that you were the most intelligent human in your age bracket within a ten mile radius.
61. You actually wanted to receive books on your birthday
62. Cleaning your room counted as Phys-Ed. (Yup!! Your assignment book consisted of "riding horses" "cleaning room" and "making bread")
63. Your field trip took you overseas.
64. Shop class included watching your brother fix his car.
65. Your track meet was riding into town to race bikes with a friend. (Yup!)
66. Your mom wished you'd stop reading and do something else for a change.
67. Your bedroom was your classroom and your bed or floor was the desk.
68. You stayed up till whenever, and not because you were doing homework.
69. You could get days ahead in almost any subject.
70. You recorded, planned and graded your own school work. (and make your own report card)
71. You forgot about the minor holidays until you saw your dad sitting home in sweats or your public school friends asked you over the weekend what you did on your day off.
72. You didn't know what spring break was.
73. Your mom counted watching a war movie as history and playing out in the snow as PE. (Totally!! Mom's are creative)
74. You had more friends way older and younger than you than ones your actual age. (yup)
75. You read for fun

Monday, February 11, 2008

Innocent?


I am reading through the Old Testament these days and a couple of days ago I was in 1 Samuel and it was talking about when the Philistines came and took away the ark of the Lord and took it to their camp and set it up by their "dagon god" ...then you know the story, dagon fell down before the ark and they set it up again and the next night it fell down again and broke its arms and head off, so just the trunk was left. So that got me to thinking about why his arms would be up by his head, I mean unless he was reaching up or something then his stone arms would have had to supernaturally move up as if they were bowing to the Lord, as he fell...so I looked up the god dagon online and found out that he looks like a mermaid. (merman) That didn't really answer the arm question, but I found it very interesting that there is an idol who looks just like Ariel. So I looked up the connection between Ariel the Disney mermaid and the god dagon. I found out that almost every pagan culture has a god who is half man half fish, and there was one merman who was supposedly the father of most of them and he was the big macho king of the sea and sun who married his sister and they populated the sea with mermaids. The goal of a mermaid was to get a soul, and theoretically the only way they could do that would be to marry a human or kill a human and steal their soul. (actually I think they also may could have just been really good and earned a soul but I didn't read much about that so I'm not sure) The mermaids then mixed with other stuff and populated the sea with sirens, who where wicked and would misuse their supernatural seductive abilities to sing sailers to their doom so they could steal their souls. (which was what the witch was trying to do in the movie by getting Ariel's voice) The stories behind it are a little different for each culture, but relatively that's the jist of it. Ariel's Daddy if you remember is the king of the sea, and he even has the same name as the (greek? version of the) dagon god, Titan. The voice that was so important in the movie, it had supernatural seductive abilities and would lure men to their doom. However, Ariel decided she wanted to get a soul by marrying a human, instead of killing one. Of course they have made it acceptable to our culture, it's a children's cartoon; they didn't tell you that her voice was satanically seductive or that she was searching for a soul, and they made the witch want to marry Eric instead of eat him and of course they appropriately stuck her in a bra. Plus America wasn't ready yet to accept a real mermaid story, now in fact they do have a horror movie named She Creature about a man eating mermaid, but back when the Little Mermaid came out America wasn't ready for that. That was just the ploy to get us use to the idea. Basically the Little Mermaid is a watered down play off on a god myth, which came to the world many centuries ago through demons.


Furthermore, apparently the makers of the Little Mermaid were into the Da Vinci Code. They made Ariel to be the picture of who they think Mary Magdalene was...the lost bride of Christ. For many centuries Mary Magdalene has been associated with mermaids. (and I'm not sure why, but I'm guessing because the mermaid has long been a symbol of prostitution, as they think Mary was the woman who the pharisees tried to get Jesus to condemn, just as Ariel was condemned by her father unjustly) From her hair color, to her skin, (being dark as the woman in Song of Solomon who was a picture of the bride of Christ who they think is Mary Magdalene) to the book and mirror that she carried, (apparently that had some kind of significance I don't know much about the Da Vinci code). The name Ariel even means "Jerusalem" the bride of Christ. If you remember in the movie Ariel even goes down to an old wrecked ship and looks at human stuff and finds an old painting of a woman with a candle...that is an old painting of Mary Magdalene. That is just blasphemy! In fact my Aunt told me yesterday that she's read the Da Vinci code book and it praises Disney for incorporating so many of their ideas in their movies and being a major factor in bringing the worship of Mary Magdalene to the United States. From what I understand the Catholics originally took Jesus, Mary his mother, and Mary Magdalene and made them into their sun god; kind of a trinity of their sun god reincarnated or something crazy like that, and they've been worshiping those three ever since. It's interesting to note that in some cultures the sea god came out during the day and became the sun god, which leads us back to where we began; the worship of the sea god. All that said do you think the Little Mermaid is simply innocent children's entertainment? I think not! From what I'm seeing the Da Vinci code is the modern cult version of the old worship of the sea god/demon, and that the Little Mermaid is a big asset in pushing their agenda.

Hmmm, makes you wonder about other Disney movies?

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Things we leave behind


There sits Simon so foolishly wise
Proudly he's tending his nets
Then Jesus calls and the boats drift away
And all that he owns he forgets
But more than the nets he abandoned that day
He found that his pride was soon drifting away
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Matthew was mindful of taking the tax
And pressing the people to pay
But hearing the call he responded in faith
And followed the Light and the Way
And leaving the people so puzzled he found
The greed in his heart was no longer around
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Every heart needs to be set free
From possessions that hold it so tight
'Cause freedom's not found in the things that we own
It's the power to do what is right
With Jesus, our only possession
Then giving becomes our delight
And we can't imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

We show a love for the world in our lives
By worshipping goods we possess
When Jesus says, Lay all your treasures aside
And love God above all the rest
'Cause when we say no to the things of the world
We open our hearts to the love of the Lord
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

And when we say no to the things of the world
We open our hearts to the love of the Lord
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind
--Michael Card & Scott Roland--

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Horsin' round

Meet the new horse! Currently I don't think we've decided on a name, but we're working on it! He's got a little bit of spirit, and Michael has been enjoying working with him. Isn't he so beautiful?!


Learning to follow the master...this shows his submission:
The impressive mount..............(doesn't the knee hole add so much character to this pic? hehe)



awwww! Don't they go perfectly together?

Ooooh he's so smooth!
Jonathan trying him out:

Oh wow, they're already comfortable with each other!

The macho this-is-my-horse pose:

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Tongues & Sleep


Mom: *shakes Dad* honey! It's 7:30 you NEED to wake up
Dad: I'm awake!! I was just...praying
Mom: Yeah....30 seconds ago you were snoring
Dad: *acts defensive* I was speaking in tongues!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Saturday, January 19, 2008

My Room II

Here are the pics that were asked for: coming into the room
This one was of my favorites
You cannot see the hatrack underneat but it's two horseshoes that are nailed together:
This is my cowGIRL corner, emphasis on the girl. :D

The bed:

I made these curtains out of a long piece of denim and scraps of material that I had from other projects. I had no pattern for these so that's why they're so unusual ;) hehe

(Hosanna notice your poem in the frame) :)
The little girl praying, I LOVE that pic!!
Notice the horseshoes over the picture on the left, I did that so the walls wouldn't look so tall, you cannot really see them in this picture but our ceilings are 10 feet high, that makes it hard to decorate the walls because everything is swallowed up with an enormous amount of white.
The idea here was a horse's tracks, I don't know if it's visible really from this picture

This was suppose to be an artistic shot, it just came out looking kind of weird though... especially drawing out the white material I had to tactfully glue to the backs of the horseshoes so they wouldn't rust the walls:
The shower curtain (Dad says he feels like he's being trampled every time he uses my bathroom):