I was driving down the road today
Song came on I haven't heard in a few years
Sobered I shifted and turned it up
As memories tortured me with my past
Kneeling on a hardwood floor
Three o'clock still sleep is my enemy
Streams of lies filled my head
Screaming at darkness, alone and empty.
Nightmares agonized my soul
Demons jeered "my destiny"
Haunted just like a prey
To be caught in traps of illusions
Just three hours of sleep
And tears for food
Still I must be secluded, trust no one
In my foolishness I fought alone
"I must grieve," sounds convincing
Any explanation to excuse my insufficency
Bleeding inside, trembling
Surely I was a captive of his lies.
My days were rushed,
Just to get through
So I could take off my mask
And be a zombie to the world
"Leave me alone, please" I said
To die in my pain was my murmur
The grips of death squeezed
Quickly air fled from me
Song came on I haven't heard in a few years
Sobered I shifted and turned it up
As memories tortured me with my past
Kneeling on a hardwood floor
Three o'clock still sleep is my enemy
Streams of lies filled my head
Screaming at darkness, alone and empty.
Nightmares agonized my soul
Demons jeered "my destiny"
Haunted just like a prey
To be caught in traps of illusions
Just three hours of sleep
And tears for food
Still I must be secluded, trust no one
In my foolishness I fought alone
"I must grieve," sounds convincing
Any explanation to excuse my insufficency
Bleeding inside, trembling
Surely I was a captive of his lies.
My days were rushed,
Just to get through
So I could take off my mask
And be a zombie to the world
"Leave me alone, please" I said
To die in my pain was my murmur
The grips of death squeezed
Quickly air fled from me
My heart called You
and then You came
Giving me light
I saw Your mercy and grace!
You stretched out your arms to me
I walked by You and believed
Resting in Your love,
In the fullness of peace
I'm always confounded how You are there
In the darkest of times, if I just look!
Though winds blow hard and clouds are dark
You say peace and my heart is still.
I praise You, for Your presence
Has filled my heart with song!
And turned my mourning to joy,
Changing my death to life.
It's when I cannot talk to You...
You talk to me.
It's when I think You're gone...
You appear.
It's when I'm angry in fright...
You comfort.
It's when I've collapsed from fighting on my own...
You offer strength.
It's when I'm not sufficient...
You suffice.
It's when I'm dying,
You save my life.
~Jessica Traylor
