Crucified with Christ

In Black and White

2009-03-24T19:40:00.012-05:00

O bomb a...

2008-11-05T10:22:00.005-06:00

Habakkuk's prayer to the Lord after he saw a vision of Jerusalem destroyed:

"Though the fig tree should not blossom

And there be no fruit on the vines,

Though the yield of the olive should fail

And the fields produce no food,

Though the flock should be cut off from the fold

And there be no cattle in the stalls,

Yet I will exult in the LORD,

I will rejoice in the God of my salvation.

The Lord GOD is my strength,

And He has made my feet like hinds' feet,

And makes me walk on my high places.

For the choir director, on my stringed instruments."

--Habakkuk 3:17-18

Change in the Air

2008-10-11T08:56:00.003-05:00

There's something talkin' in the wind
Whispering through the trees
That feeling in my bones again
Just puts me right at ease
It takes me back to all the times
I' ve been here before
But crossroads, old familiar signs
Tell me there's something more

Can't explain, there's something
strange about the early fall
It's comfort leaving me without a care
I remain but everything around me hears the call
And tonight I feel a change in the air

The leaves are turning, soon they'll fall
There's a norther blowing in
The memories flowin', I recall
Those changes in the wind
But I can never try to understand
There's nothing you can hold in your hand

Can't explain, there's something
strange about the early fall
It's comfort leaving me without a care
I remain but everything around me hears the call
And tonight I feel a change in the air

Yes I'll surely feel a change in the air

A Woman's Question

2008-09-19T09:34:00.001-05:00

"A Woman's Question" by Lena Lathrop

"Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing
Ever made by the hand above?
A woman's heart, and a woman's life
And a woman's wonderful love.

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing
As a child might ask for a toy?
Demanding what others have died to win,
With the reckless dash of a boy

You have written my lesson of duty out,
Manlike, you have questioned me.
Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul
Until I shall question thee.
You require your mutton shall always be hot,
Your socks and your shirt be whole;
I require your heart be true as God's stars
And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,
I require a far greater thing;
A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirts
I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,
And a man that his Maker, God,
Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: "It is very good"

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade
From this soft young cheek one day;
Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,
As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,
I may launch my all on its tide?
A loving woman finds heaven or hell
On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,
All things that a man should be;
If you give this all, I would stake my life
To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook
You can hire and little to pay;
But a woman's heart and a woman's life
Are not to be won that way."

Clumsy

2008-09-08T14:32:00.004-05:00

You think I’d have it down by now
Been practicin’ for thirty {nineteen} years
I should have walked a thousand miles
So what am I still doin’ here
Reachin’ out for that same old piece of forbidden fruit
I slip and fall and I knock my halo loose
Somebody tell me what’s a boy {girl} supposed to do?

I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You’re sayin’ You love me
And You’re still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
‘Cause You’re makin’ me holy
You’re still makin’ me holy, yeah

I’m gonna get it right this time
I’ll be strong and I’ll make You proud
I’ve prayed that prayer a thousand times
But the rooster crows and my tears roll down (again)
Then You remind me You made me from the dust
And I can never, no never, be good enough
And that You’re not gonna let that come between us

I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You’re sayin’ You love me
And You’re still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
‘Cause You’re makin’ me holy
You’re still makin’ me holy, yeah

From where I stand
Your holiness is up so high I can never reach it
My only hope is to fall on Jesus

I get so clumsy
I get so foolish
I get so stupid
And then I feel so useless
But You’re sayin’ You love me
And You’re still gonna hold me
And that You wanna be near me
‘Cause You’re makin’ me holy
You’re still makin’ me holy, yeah
--Chris Rice

Tribute to Chancey

2008-08-13T12:49:00.012-05:00

I LOVE MY BAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!

MY bay.........................

*falling hearts*

Sometimes she takes the bit and gets too strong
And sometimes when I neck rein she turns all wrong
But right or wrong she's right beneath me, like only a friend would be,
And that's close enough to perfect for me

The other horses get their kicks from her hind legs,
Course she don't like it when I kick her insteads
Oh I know she's not an angel, but how boring would that be?
She's close enough to perfect for me

She comes to me and nudges
And follows me around
She don't have to say it
I can see it in her eyes

Don't you worry bout my horse,
What you think she ought to be,
She's close enough to perfect for me.

Sometimes she'll spook and take you by surprise
And you will land hard if you don't compromise...
She's all the horse I've ever wanted
And all the one I need
She's close enough to perfect for me.

She comes to me and nudges
And follows me around
She don't have to say it
I can see it in her eyes

Don't you worry bout my horse,
What you think she ought to be,
She's close enough to perfect for me.

--Jessica Traylor lyric substitute for "Close Enough To Perfect" by Alabama

You save my life

2008-07-29T19:06:00.017-05:00

I was driving down the road today
Song came on I haven't heard in a few years
Sobered I shifted and turned it up
As memories tortured me with my past

Kneeling on a hardwood floor
Three o'clock still sleep is my enemy
Streams of lies filled my head
Screaming at darkness, alone and empty.

Nightmares agonized my soul
Demons jeered "my destiny"
Haunted just like a prey
To be caught in traps of illusions

Just three hours of sleep
And tears for food
Still I must be secluded, trust no one
In my foolishness I fought alone

"I must grieve," sounds convincing
Any explanation to excuse my insufficency
Bleeding inside, trembling
Surely I was a captive of his lies.

My days were rushed,
Just to get through
So I could take off my mask
And be a zombie to the world

"Leave me alone, please" I said
To die in my pain was my murmur
The grips of death squeezed
Quickly air fled from me

My heart called You
and then You came
Giving me light
I saw Your mercy and grace!

You stretched out your arms to me
I walked by You and believed
Resting in Your love,
In the fullness of peace

I'm always confounded how You are there
In the darkest of times, if I just look!
Though winds blow hard and clouds are dark
You say peace and my heart is still.

I praise You, for Your presence
Has filled my heart with song!
And turned my mourning to joy,
Changing my death to life.

It's when I cannot talk to You...

You talk to me.

It's when I think You're gone...

You appear.

It's when I'm angry in fright...

You comfort.

It's when I've collapsed from fighting on my own...

You offer strength.

It's when I'm not sufficient...

You suffice.

It's when I'm dying,

You save my life.

~Jessica Traylor

When Kids Speak...

2008-06-25T22:24:00.008-05:00

Aww I just found an old journal that I use to write in every day. I pulled out a few entries, this was when I was 12...

God,
Please help me to become a good housewife and mother and wife when I grow up if it be your will for me to be married! Help me in my cooking this summer. I love you. ~Jessica 6/20/01

Jesus,
Please help me to pray more often. I praise you for what you are! I love you! Help me to be orderly and neat and to love you with all my heart. Please give me advise on the backyard Bible club. Please give me peace about it one way or another! I love you! ~Jessica 6/23/01

Dear God,
Thanks for all. I love you so much!!! Please help me to be a witness for you this day as I walk in my every day life. We are planning to do a lot of cleaning again today. That will be fun! I love you and praise you and thank you for giving me another day to live for you and witness for you. Please help me to be a good witness! Help me! Talk to you later in the day! ~Jessica 6/27/01

Lord keep me from making the mistakes I'm most prone to when temptation comes. I confess that what I think is necessary, smart, or personally beneficial is so often only the beautiful wrapping on sin. So please, keep me far from evil! Keep me safe from the pain and grief that sin brings. For the dangers that I can't see, or the ones that I think I can risk because of my experience (pride and carelessness), put up a supernatural barrier. Protect me, Father, by your power! I love you! ~Jessica 7/1/01

Lord help me to find out if Katie's saved Lord, she didn't give me a real answer, help me! ~Jessica 7/8/01

I've been trying not to think about Missouri, but pray about it. We are going to Missouri Friday to look around and for Dad to see about the bank. I love you so much Lord! Lead me in the way that is right! Help me, tell me the answer. Help me not to get too excited before I know the answer. 1st of September is when the job starts, whether it's Daddy's job or not I don't know, but I only want your guidance, tell me Lord! I love you and I'll be praying! ~ Jessica P.S. Thanks for helping me with my report!! 8/2/01

Dear Father,
I love you! Thanks for helping me love you more, Lord, I'm waiting for Daniel Josiah (((this is the name my mother had picked out for her next son, except she never had one))), he hasn't come yet. I love you, help me have patience. ~Jessica 9/1/01

Jesus,
Thanks for lifting my burdens, I feel so much peace!! Please, I beg for a Jabez appointment tomorrow. ~Jessica 9/31/01

Dear Lord,
Yesterday I got up at 5:00 so today I didn't but I did do my math before we left on the field trip with the Schmidts with your help. Misty came over today, we talked, but not very much because they were only here about 45 minutes I think. Please help me help her grow in you! I love you and praise you for letting her be my friend. Please help me to grow also and help my SPARKS, I love each one, they are so darling! Most of the time. Help me Lord to witness to Reagan, she is so darling! Love you so much and I've been looking for a Jabez appointment! ~Jessica P.S. Sorry for the bad handwriting, help my future husband to live a good and pleasing life to you also! 10/3/01

Dear Daddy,
Thanks so much for giving me everything that you did. Please help me to keep praying, and reading my Bible and studying it and having so much peace like I have had these last few days. Help me to do better on not irritating people and arguing though. Lord you have done so much for me and these last few days you have blessed me enormously. I just hope and pray that I will always have this kind of peace. Help me be diligent to study God's Word, pray, keep right with you, and do my school work! I love you! See you in heaven! Love, Jessica. 3/6/02

I'm in a hurry

2008-06-17T17:53:00.005-05:00

We have a million things to do every day, we got work, school, homework, appointments, plans, schedules, shopping, church, practice, oh yeah, gotta eat too...sometimes that optional. We are all going different directions, always in a hurry, rush it, there is so much to do! Fast food not fast enough, 1 hour photo develop just ain't worth the time. Why does that girl keep asking me to talk to her, she knows I'm slam packed?? Wait, when do I have time to sleep? How could I have forgotten to feed my dog AGAIN? And what do we do in our free time? Ipods, cell phones, TV, computer, radio, there is never a noiseless moment, GOOD GRIEF!!! No wonder there are no real families left in our country!!!

I'm in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life's no fun
All I really got to do is live and die
But I'm in a hurry and don't know why

Can't be late, I leave in plenty of time
Shakin' hands with the clock
I can't stop
I'm on a roll and I'm ready to rock

Don't know why I have to drive so fast
My car has nothing to prove
It's not new
But it'll do zero to sixty in five point two

Oh, I hear a voice
That says I'm running behind
Better pick up my pace
It's a race and there ain't no room for someone in second place

I'm in a hurry to get things done
Oh I rush and rush until life's no fun
All I really got to do is live and die
But I'm in a hurry and don't know why
--Alabama--

Got to keep doing, keep going, push push push push...until guess what? You break. Then you turn to the Lord (hopefully) and wonder where He has been. He ain't gone no where friend. Back on your rollercoaster and the race is on again. Run run run, til you're completely out of gas and back and square 1 and the cycle continues. And we wonder why we're so stressed? haha. What ever happened to life?

STOP

How can you hear His voice with so much noise? How can you say you are following God when you cannot even see him for all the activities? How can you say He is your best friend when you don't put time into talking to Him? It's so ironic, why do you want God to save time for you if you don't save time for Him?

Slow down. Find your peace with God and keep it, that relationship needs maintenance. Turn off the radio, off the noise, off the commotion, maybe even off the lights and get real with God. Or go take a walk in the starlight, that always does the trick for me, but watch out for panthers! :P You need time to think, you need time to talk to other people about the important things, you need time to play with your children, your siblings, to give your Mom or Dad a much needed break...a foot massage or nice walk and talk. Go take the weekend off, go to the lake, pick up a line go fishin, leave that radio off for goodness sake!!! Speak sweet, find out how other people are feeling. Spend it with your family, with your friends, show them you love them. Grab a pizza, pick up that Bible, bring a notebook you just might want to write somethin down! Hug a friend, smile at a stranger, talk to your family, PRAY with your family. Snuggle up and watch a movie with hot chocolate and popcorn, pull out a good family book and read out loud in the living room, or just sit around and talk! Do we even know how to talk to our family anymore? Have a nice long bubble bath, or milk bath even better! Play with the kids in your life, rock the baby to sleep you might decide you don't want to put her down. Pull out that favorite pie recipe, surprise somebody. Smile, laugh, sing. Enjoy life, it's only so long. Live as if today is a gift, and you've got eternity to think about what you did with it. Somehow the important things become more clear.

1 year old?!!

2008-06-06T10:00:00.009-05:00

McCabe is a year old TODAY!!! Happy birthday sweety! My how time flies, I am shocked. :D

To See You Smile

2008-06-02T12:40:00.001-05:00

Forever...

2008-05-27T11:40:00.003-05:00

I could give you what you want,
It sounds awful fun to me.
But why waste today
On what I’ll throw away tomorrow?
For I could never give you forever.

I hear you tell me to come with you,
Swimming, movies, dinner and dance.
But I’m sorry I just will not be
What you want me to be,
For I could never give you forever.

You want me more than a friend,
You want a companion for life.
But why do you call me Darlin’
When I’ve told you
I could never give you forever?

I could love you I suppose,
I could mother your children, sure.
But I won’t for it’s defying my very existence
To do all for the glory of the Lord.
For I could never give you forever...

With no vision the people perish,
It’s nothing against you.
But I will not stand with a man
Who is not wrapped up in Christ.
So I could never give you forever.

Don’t make me wish for Dom,
Yes I long for my prince
But you are not he.
Sorry man your time is up,
Never could I give you forever.

--Jessica Traylor--

He washed my eyes with tears

2008-05-07T09:40:00.003-05:00

I love old hymns, there is so much behind them. This is one of my favorites, it speaks for itself:

He washed my eyes with tears that I might see,
The broken heart I had was good for me;
He tore it all apart and looked inside,
He found it full of fear and foolish pride.
He swept away the things that made me blind
And then I saw the clouds were silver lined;
And now I understand 'twas best for me
He washed my eyes with tears that I might see.

He washed my eyes with tears that I might see
The glory of Himself revealed to me;
I did not know that He had wounded hands
I saw the blood He spilt upon the sands.
I saw the marks of shame and wept and cried;
He was my substitute for me He died;
And now I'm glad He came so tenderly;
And washed my eyes with tears that I might see.
--Julie Lee Stone--

Why do you always have to have a subject line?

2008-04-24T14:06:00.004-05:00

Today is the second day back in my old office, in the front desk where people come in and out all the time. In a way it's happy to be back and get to see people some... but then I'd forgotten all the glitches of the front desk like continually being called sugar and hunny and sweetheart and baby and beautiful ...or on the other hand getting hung up on or performing on demand when I'm in the middle of a project. *sighs* Now I remember why I like it in my little corner where I can shut the door and focus on my work. My chair in the back has arms and I constantly rest my arms on them and lean back...my chair in the front has no arms and I've almost landed on the floor twice today trying to lean on my non-existent arms. hehehe I was in an important convo with a client who was on the other side of the desk from me and all the sudden I leaned over and was like "WOOOOOOOOOOW!" *falls out of chair* lol

But on the other hand me being back in the front means we're done with tax season. YAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!! That makes me so happy. God is great!!!

My Confession

2008-04-07T21:40:00.003-05:00

My prayer to the Lord (I love this song!):

My Confession

I have been blind, unwilling
To see the true love You're giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I'm on my knees confessing

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

You are the air that I breathe.
You're the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?

Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart
Falling into place.

I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

Hear my confession
--Josh Groban--

awwwwww

2008-04-03T10:44:00.004-05:00

Isn't he so sweet??? *sighs happily* McCabe is getting so big. He's such a little man. awwwwww.

Solomon's Praises

2008-03-31T09:53:00.003-05:00

"O LORD, the God of Israel, there is no God like You in heaven above or on earth beneath, keeping covenant and showing lovingkindness to Your servants who walk before You with all their heart, who have kept with Your servant, my father David, that which You have promised him; indeed, You have spoken with Your mouth and have fulfilled it with Your hand as it is this day." 1 Kings 8:23-24

I'm sure missing you

2008-03-26T23:33:00.005-05:00

I'm stressed; going all the time

My life is way too packed

I just want to hear your laugh

Sometimes I don't know what to do

Yeah I'm sure missing you

My days are long and hard,

Work eats my mind, time, and life

I'm tired, but I cannot sleep

Tonight I'm crazy, lonely, and blue

And I'm sure missing you

He keeps me and

I know it's true

That with Him alone

I will make it through,

But I'm sure missing you

If two hearts were meant

To be together

Then why am I alone?

Yet not alone, God's here too

Somehow I'm still missing you

The Light

2008-03-21T09:49:00.007-05:00

Tell me, how do you explain

LIGHT to a blind person?

How do you explain color to someone

who has seen nothing but black?

Maybe if I could figure that out it

would be easier to explain

MY LORD to a lost person.

Time to Recooperate

2008-03-17T10:59:00.010-05:00

Sometimes you just need a nice long ride to rejuvenate yourself to return to the stress of life; to get time to pray, rest to think, and room to breathe.

"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." James 1:2-4

Appearance

2008-03-10T13:51:00.002-05:00

"There are women who are not beautiful but only look that way." Karl Kraus

HOMESCHOOLING ILLEGAL

2008-03-06T16:43:00.004-06:00

NO WAY!!!!!!!!! Today California outlawed home schooling! It is now illegal to home school if you live in California! I am so upset.

http://onenewsnow.com/Legal/Default.aspx?id=69177

That is so sad. Don't forget to be praying for these United States, I tell you what we're going downhill fast. I wouldn't be surprised if homeschooling were illegal all over the US in 10 or 20 years. This will push many kids into school, and push others to move; ultimately creating a mass exit of some and merging of other homeschoolers into more children of the government.

Please be praying for the Christian homeschoolers in CA, for strength and wisdom for them and that they would stick with the godly principles that brought them to homeschooling in the beginning. I feel like going into mourning.

House of the Lord

2008-03-03T14:38:00.003-06:00

"One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek Him in His temple."
Psalm 27:4

Names

2008-02-28T10:14:00.005-06:00

If I had a child one day what would I name it? Glad you asked! I just happen to have a list, for starters at least. You should try name making, it's great fun! I have a special meaning (italic) for each name, and a verse that goes with it...then for a few of them I have a special person (in bold) that goes with the verse and meaning whose life inspired the name or meaning of the name. Meaning their life displays the verse predominantly or they have been a major factor in teaching me the significance of the verse.

Jonathan Cade -- gift from God, pure *Jonathan Traylor

“Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing…Every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow.” James 1:2-4,17

Alaina Zelene – bright, sunshine *Rachelle Traylor

“Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.” Matthew 5:16

Stephen Garrett – crowned one, to watch

“But being full of the Holy Spirit, he gazed intently into heaven and saw the glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God; and he said, ‘Behold, I see the heavens opened up and the Son of Man standing at the right hand of God.’” Acts 7:55-56

Lynda Ruth – beautiful, companion friend *Linda Schmidt

“Then the King will desire your beauty. Because He is your Lord, bow down to Him.” Psalms 45:11

Faith Destiny – to trust, for which you were meant *MWS II

“Commit your works to the LORD and your plans will be established.” Proverbs 16:3

Mercy Lorén – compassion, crowned with laurel *Charissa Traylor

??? not sure, still gathering thoughts on the verse here.

Joses Timothy – who pardons, to honor God

“For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive, And abundant in lovingkindness to all who call upon You.” Psalms 86:5

Havilah Koren – land of great worth, maiden

“The name of the first is Pishon; it flows around the whole land of Havilah, where there is gold. The gold of that land is good; the bdellium and the onyx stone are there.” Genesis 2:11-12

Ada Grace – prosperous happy, grace of God *Mom

“The chief jailer did not supervise anything under Joseph's charge because the LORD was with him; and whatever he did, the LORD made to prosper.” Genesis 39:23

Kadin Trace – companion, brave *Dad

“Therefore let us draw near with confidence to the throne of grace, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” Hebrews 4:16

Kyla Michelle – lovely, who is like God? *Misty Schmidt

“How lovely are Your dwelling places, O LORD of hosts!” Ps. 84:1

Here I abide

2008-02-24T00:08:00.005-06:00

I saw to what God has called me
I rejoiced and ran ahead to embrace it
But quickly faced what appeared to be
a cliff, drop off, chiseled rock

My spirit gasped as I stopped in my tracks
Suddenly my joyful smile left me void
It really seems my faith lacks
This was your idea remember, Lord?

Anxious to move ahead,
Pushing on with the progress
I have nothing to dread!
Let's get this show started

"Lord I know You have a plan"
My prayers plead to silence
"Lead me and keep me in your hand"
And I moved on with my ideas

In search I turned to the left
Right into a dead end road
But I mustn't go back to the cleft
For that would take much too long

Heading to the right
I found storms of every kind
Maybe taking this road wasn't so bright,
So I turned back bruised

Tired and worn I crawl back there
And see his plan, my desire ahead
I'm getting nowhere! I cry in despair
Why did You think I could do this Lord?

This is the end and I'm not this strong
To expect me to continue here is beyond me
I've prayed for your help for so long
Why are You so deaf to my plea?

Alas the Lord turned to me
And I realized His silence had a purpose
He was waiting on my heart to be
Ready to listen, to be broken

"Be still child, have I not promised
To get you to the other side?
Then just wait and let me lead
Stand still, I will move in time."

So in this desert I make my abode,
And here I shall remain
Until the time is, and He builds a road
Or gives me wings
-Jessica Traylor-

Home Schooler

2008-02-20T17:46:00.003-06:00

You might be a home school graduate if:

My thoughts are in (parenthesizes)

1. You went to school in your PJs.
2. Your biology lab consisted of assisting in your sibling's birth.
3. Your stacks of books to check out was taller than the librarian.
4. Your PE came from chasing little toddlers around.
5. Your school bus was a 9 passenger van.
6. You considered school work after lunch to be cruel and unusual punishment.
7. Your father ever told the check-out lady at Wal-Mart, "We're on a field trip."
8. Your social life was viewed by some to be one rung lower than that of a Benedictine monk.
9. Your teacher ever wrote your report card on a napkin.
10. You had to move dirty laundry off your desk before you could start school.
11. The signatures on your diploma all end with the same last name.
12. Everyone else in the world was referred to as "Non-homies."
13. Your Mother's wardrobe consisted primarily of denim jumpers.
14. Your first real date was on your honeymoon.
15. The word 'homework' sounded like a foreign language.
16. Your yearbook was also your babybook.
17. A snow day meant that you had to shovel the driveway after you finished your school work.
18. You enjoyed the pastime of watching public school kids walk home from school.
19. You had to look at the clock to see if you could call your public school friends yet.
20. You thought that "public-school-kid" was an insult of the highest degree. (HAHAHAHAHA)
21. Health class consisted of eating breakfast.
22. You had to decide what year you wanted to graduate.
23. You were always late but just called it "homeschooler time."
24. You can remember nearly every single day you went to public school.
25. The teacher could kiss the principal, and no one thought it was unusual.
26. You got to school and the teacher asked you if you've done all your chores.
27. You are one of the best people in the world!
28. Your friends talked about waiting in line for seven hours to try out the new roller coaster in town, so you went and waited five minutes on a school day.
29. Your school lunches contained any food item easily identifiable to a person without a microscope and extensive scientific knowledge.
30. You find it entertaining to listen to Beethoven while in math class.
31. Gym class was actually a fun activity like swimming.
32. You're on a first-name basis with the clerks at the local bookstore.
33. The closest thing to a bully in your school was your slightly strange two-year-old sister.
34. Your friends complained about a hard day at school, and you had to keep yourself from giving them "that homeschooling smile." (LOL!!!! This one is SO true!!)
35. You heard the phrase "socialization" and laughed because you had more friends and knew more people than your public school friends.
36. Your school dress code was: No Nudity Allowed
37. You could eat while you took a test
38. You were firmly convinced that high school causes brain damage (Yup! along with syncopation, hehe)
39. You slept in till 9 am on weekdays but got up at 7 am on Sundays
40. You have more siblings than sweaters
41. You knew what a 'Park Day' is
42. Your favorite author was Jane Austen, G.K. Chesterton, or P.G. Wodehouse
43. You have ever suffered through Saxon Math (amen, there should be some kind of tax credit for that...)
44. All birthdays were school holidays
45. You have ever finished your schoolwork before breakfast
46. You taunted high schooled friends during finals week
47. You spent more than 2 hours each day reading and writing....voluntarily
48. You are 16 years of age or older and still have never been on a date
49. You knew what "Unit Studies" were (totally!)
50. You had more than 2 science experiments going on in your room
51. You knew more than 1 Latin paradigm
52. You have ever spent the entire school day in pajamas
53. You regularly utilized words such as "malingering", "tedious", and "indubitably"
54. You considered sled riding phys ed
55. Your IQ is greater than your weight
56. You checked out more than 10 books each time you visited the library
57. You have ever attempted to teach yourself physics
58. When asked about your GPA, you said, "Oh, probably 4.0." ( *nods knowingly* )
59. You had no idea as to what rock bands were popular then...but you could recite all of the stages of cellular mitosis. ... (in order)
60. You believed that you were the most intelligent human in your age bracket within a ten mile radius.
61. You actually wanted to receive books on your birthday
62. Cleaning your room counted as Phys-Ed. (Yup!! Your assignment book consisted of "riding horses" "cleaning room" and "making bread")
63. Your field trip took you overseas.
64. Shop class included watching your brother fix his car.
65. Your track meet was riding into town to race bikes with a friend. (Yup!)
66. Your mom wished you'd stop reading and do something else for a change.
67. Your bedroom was your classroom and your bed or floor was the desk.
68. You stayed up till whenever, and not because you were doing homework.
69. You could get days ahead in almost any subject.
70. You recorded, planned and graded your own school work. (and make your own report card)
71. You forgot about the minor holidays until you saw your dad sitting home in sweats or your public school friends asked you over the weekend what you did on your day off.
72. You didn't know what spring break was.
73. Your mom counted watching a war movie as history and playing out in the snow as PE. (Totally!! Mom's are creative)
74. You had more friends way older and younger than you than ones your actual age. (yup)
75. You read for fun

Innocent?

2008-02-11T13:54:00.001-06:00

I am reading through the Old Testament these days and a couple of days ago I was in 1 Samuel and it was talking about when the Philistines came and took away the ark of the Lord and took it to their camp and set it up by their "dagon god" ...then you know the story, dagon fell down before the ark and they set it up again and the next night it fell down again and broke its arms and head off, so just the trunk was left. So that got me to thinking about why his arms would be up by his head, I mean unless he was reaching up or something then his stone arms would have had to supernaturally move up as if they were bowing to the Lord, as he fell...so I looked up the god dagon online and found out that he looks like a mermaid. (merman) That didn't really answer the arm question, but I found it very interesting that there is an idol who looks just like Ariel. So I looked up the connection between Ariel the Disney mermaid and the god dagon. I found out that almost every pagan culture has a god who is half man half fish, and there was one merman who was supposedly the father of most of them and he was the big macho king of the sea and sun who married his sister and they populated the sea with mermaids. The goal of a mermaid was to get a soul, and theoretically the only way they could do that would be to marry a human or kill a human and steal their soul. (actually I think they also may could have just been really good and earned a soul but I didn't read much about that so I'm not sure) The mermaids then mixed with other stuff and populated the sea with sirens, who where wicked and would misuse their supernatural seductive abilities to sing sailers to their doom so they could steal their souls. (which was what the witch was trying to do in the movie by getting Ariel's voice) The stories behind it are a little different for each culture, but relatively that's the jist of it. Ariel's Daddy if you remember is the king of the sea, and he even has the same name as the (greek? version of the) dagon god, Titan. The voice that was so important in the movie, it had supernatural seductive abilities and would lure men to their doom. However, Ariel decided she wanted to get a soul by marrying a human, instead of killing one. Of course they have made it acceptable to our culture, it's a children's cartoon; they didn't tell you that her voice was satanically seductive or that she was searching for a soul, and they made the witch want to marry Eric instead of eat him and of course they appropriately stuck her in a bra. Plus America wasn't ready yet to accept a real mermaid story, now in fact they do have a horror movie named She Creature about a man eating mermaid, but back when the Little Mermaid came out America wasn't ready for that. That was just the ploy to get us use to the idea. Basically the Little Mermaid is a watered down play off on a god myth, which came to the world many centuries ago through demons.

Furthermore, apparently the makers of the Little Mermaid were into the Da Vinci Code. They made Ariel to be the picture of who they think Mary Magdalene was...the lost bride of Christ. For many centuries Mary Magdalene has been associated with mermaids. (and I'm not sure why, but I'm guessing because the mermaid has long been a symbol of prostitution, as they think Mary was the woman who the pharisees tried to get Jesus to condemn, just as Ariel was condemned by her father unjustly) From her hair color, to her skin, (being dark as the woman in Song of Solomon who was a picture of the bride of Christ who they think is Mary Magdalene) to the book and mirror that she carried, (apparently that had some kind of significance I don't know much about the Da Vinci code). The name Ariel even means "Jerusalem" the bride of Christ. If you remember in the movie Ariel even goes down to an old wrecked ship and looks at human stuff and finds an old painting of a woman with a candle...that is an old painting of Mary Magdalene. That is just blasphemy! In fact my Aunt told me yesterday that she's read the Da Vinci code book and it praises Disney for incorporating so many of their ideas in their movies and being a major factor in bringing the worship of Mary Magdalene to the United States. From what I understand the Catholics originally took Jesus, Mary his mother, and Mary Magdalene and made them into their sun god; kind of a trinity of their sun god reincarnated or something crazy like that, and they've been worshiping those three ever since. It's interesting to note that in some cultures the sea god came out during the day and became the sun god, which leads us back to where we began; the worship of the sea god. All that said do you think the Little Mermaid is simply innocent children's entertainment? I think not! From what I'm seeing the Da Vinci code is the modern cult version of the old worship of the sea god/demon, and that the Little Mermaid is a big asset in pushing their agenda.

Hmmm, makes you wonder about other Disney movies?

Things we leave behind

2008-02-05T08:58:00.000-06:00

There sits Simon so foolishly wise
Proudly he's tending his nets
Then Jesus calls and the boats drift away
And all that he owns he forgets
But more than the nets he abandoned that day
He found that his pride was soon drifting away
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Matthew was mindful of taking the tax
And pressing the people to pay
But hearing the call he responded in faith
And followed the Light and the Way
And leaving the people so puzzled he found
The greed in his heart was no longer around
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Every heart needs to be set free
From possessions that hold it so tight
'Cause freedom's not found in the things that we own
It's the power to do what is right
With Jesus, our only possession
Then giving becomes our delight
And we can't imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

We show a love for the world in our lives
By worshipping goods we possess
When Jesus says, Lay all your treasures aside
And love God above all the rest
'Cause when we say no to the things of the world
We open our hearts to the love of the Lord
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

And when we say no to the things of the world
We open our hearts to the love of the Lord
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind
--Michael Card & Scott Roland--

Horsin' round

2008-01-31T16:07:00.001-06:00

Meet the new horse! Currently I don't think we've decided on a name, but we're working on it! He's got a little bit of spirit, and Michael has been enjoying working with him. Isn't he so beautiful?!

Learning to follow the master...this shows his submission:

The impressive mount..............(doesn't the knee hole add so much character to this pic? hehe)

awwww! Don't they go perfectly together?

Ooooh he's so smooth!

Jonathan trying him out:

Oh wow, they're already comfortable with each other!

The macho this-is-my-horse pose:

Tongues & Sleep

2008-01-22T13:30:00.001-06:00

Mom: *shakes Dad* honey! It's 7:30 you NEED to wake up
Dad: I'm awake!! I was just...praying
Mom: Yeah....30 seconds ago you were snoring
Dad: *acts defensive* I was speaking in tongues!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

My Room II

2008-01-19T21:59:00.001-06:00

Here are the pics that were asked for: coming into the room

This one was of my favorites

You cannot see the hatrack underneat but it's two horseshoes that are nailed together:

This is my cowGIRL corner, emphasis on the girl. :D

The bed:

I made these curtains out of a long piece of denim and scraps of material that I had from other projects. I had no pattern for these so that's why they're so unusual ;) hehe

(Hosanna notice your poem in the frame) :)

The little girl praying, I LOVE that pic!!

Notice the horseshoes over the picture on the left, I did that so the walls wouldn't look so tall, you cannot really see them in this picture but our ceilings are 10 feet high, that makes it hard to decorate the walls because everything is swallowed up with an enormous amount of white.

The idea here was a horse's tracks, I don't know if it's visible really from this picture

This was suppose to be an artistic shot, it just came out looking kind of weird though... especially drawing out the white material I had to tactfully glue to the backs of the horseshoes so they wouldn't rust the walls:

The shower curtain (Dad says he feels like he's being trampled every time he uses my bathroom):

Health Kick

2008-01-15T14:31:00.001-06:00

Hey everybooooooooooody! Well...I am on a health kick again. I think this time I'm going to rid myself of unhealthy food for good. Well, what of it I can. I dropped caffeine last health kick, now I'm *breathes deeply* now I am thinking about sugar. Also white flour, those are the two main things I need to eliminate... or cut back on to the best of my ability. Only problem is that sugar and flour are in EVERYTHING.

Due to my current obsession with hope chests I am trying to put together a healthy version of my formerly unhealthy recipe box. I'm pulling out all of Mom's healthy recipes and mine and looking for substitute recipes for the ones that just haven't worked out when I tried to substitute healthy stuff in them. I'm looking for your favorite healthy recipes, you know honey, whole wheat, flax seed, wheat germ, and olive oil ones...if anybody has any suggestions or recipes bring them on!

Specifically what I am at a loss for is a whole wheat pie crust recipe, a whole wheat pizza dough recipe, whole wheat tortilla recipe that's light like tortilla's are suppose to be (I have one but it's really heavy I don't like it) any healthy desserts, Brownies? The whole wheat brownies I've tried to make are disturbing heavy, anybody have an alternative recipe? Creative fruit ideas, a healthy ketchup recipe without all that sugar...a dressing (like Ranch), we get this organic healthy stuff from Brookshires and it's just NASTY!....umm and that's all I can think of right now.

Here's a tip for anybody who is trying this, get What to Eat When You Are Expecting by Arlene Einsburg. It has pages and pages of awesome healthy versions of food (even desserts and such) using apple juice concentrate to sweeten things... I'm sure it's at your local library, it's not a hard book to come across.

Communicating your heart

2008-01-08T12:13:00.000-06:00

Communicating your heart, things that really matter, can be a real problem. Especially to those of us who are comfortable with distance. It’s much easier just to block people out and attempt to handle things on your own. But there is a time when openness is a necessity. (AKA: with your family, mentors, accountability partner etc…) Specifically it’s essential to be open with your leaders; your dad or husband if you are a girl. For if you are not open with them, how will they know how to lead you? Or what you need? Or what you are thinking? And how can they give you the help you need?

So I’ve put together a list of tips that I’ve found helpful about relating your heart to such people. I’m writing this from a girls point of view so I don’t know if it applies to guys or not but I’m sure some of the principles are the same:

Every time you think of something you need direction on or feel like you need to talk to somebody about, write it down. If your authority is as busy as mine you might get a list before you have time to sit down and share your heart with him.

Be direct, it’s easier then beating around the bush and leaves less room for confusion. Go on, lay your heart on the line, it’s much better then keeping it all to yourself. If you are talking to your authority it gives them an idea of how to lead you, otherwise how would he know where your heart was?

If you are having extra trouble opening up turn off the light or go somewhere in a dark car. Darkness definitely does the trick, it’s much easier to talk when you cannot be seen. Exposing light makes us shrink back from showing emotion, and it’s impossible to share your heart without emotion.

Do not be afraid to cry, this releases the emotions inside and helps you cope with life. Crying is a need every woman has, do not deny it. Do not feel weakened by it, for it allows you to be strong later.

If you are talking to a man, believe me he does not know what you are thinking, you have to tell him EVERYTHING. (I do not suggest this with any man except your father, husband, or brothers) Don’t just assume he knows, as you would a girl. Talking with men is a totally different ball game. He can not read your thoughts, do not expect him to just understand, be pleasantly surprised if he does.

Sometimes the person does not know what to say or do and you have to teach them what you want. Communication is everything, say it or they won’t know it. Confirm them when they do things right.

Chances are when you open up, the person will hurt you in one way or another. Not always but there is a definite probability. Do not be startled by this, go ahead and be expecting it. Assume it’s going to sting, assume it’s going to hurt. When it happens, do not shrink back like we are prone to do, or you will leave in worse shape then you came. Be open about what upsets you and remember the light trick if you feel exposed. :)

Ask him for advice, show him you respect him. Be sensitive to him, you are not the only one with feelings or emotions, put yourself in his shoes. It’s hard to relate to somebody and say everything just right. Give him slack.

WARNING: These techniques are not to be used on just anybody, they really do work in bonding you to the victim. (for lack of a better word) Be careful with whom you choose to bond.

Tub Shots

2008-01-07T16:45:00.001-06:00

I cannot help it, one look and he steals my heart:

Mister McCabe Brown

check out that smile:

Utah Dec/Jan

2008-01-04T13:41:00.002-06:00

Utah!!! Yay, we had so much fun this trip I thought I'd share some pictures with y'all. :D Here is us with Sarah (from FRIENDS) and her siblings... we spent the first night in Colorado with her. It was SO awesome to get to meet them, they are neat people I really enjoyed the fellowship.

We arrived in Utah Thursday night and spent all day Friday groomsmen shopping and at Cabela's. Which was totally awesome. It was good to get to meet Isaac's family, they are sooooooo neat, each one of them is my favorite. The whole week was a blast. Here is Hosanna at the shooting range in Cabela's:

Me assisting Melody:

Havilah and Melody immediately found their respective princes. The rest of the week walking was history. :D

Ok, so maybe the boys aren't the only ones that spoil them: (isn't that an awesome picture of Jonathan?!)

Saturday was sledding/tubing!!! All day long, oh how fun!!! I have many battle scars to prove the duration of my endurance.

The view from the top of our sledding hill...oh MY goodness is that not GORGEOUS?!!!

Abel, he was a ham...and so sweet.

Church was...wow. Awesome. It was such a neat service. We started at 10:00 and didn't go home until 4 in the afternoon! Breaking of bread and then potluck, missionaries spoke and then we sang. It was very encouraging, I absolutely love their church. This is us girls:
Havilah, Me, Melody, Anna, Rachelle (and her ummm...hat), Hosanna, Sydney, Charissa, Rachel

The guys and Anna: James, Caleb, Jonathan and Michael

Wow, Boaz took a liking to me, I wasn't expecting that. Isn't he so handsome? (don't look at my straight hair, it wouldn't work right all week)

Isaac and Noah goofing off:

The girls playing:

After we left Utah we meet Danielle and Zach (from FRIENDS) in Wyoming for lunch. That was sweet! Good friends are a blessing:

Cruzin' through Kansas:

Christmas

2007-12-21T16:30:00.000-06:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm heading off to family and then Utah, see y'all later!

My Room

2007-12-17T12:54:00.001-06:00

Oh MY goodness, this is so exciting!!! I had Rachelle move out all her decorations out of my room last week and I'm redecorating everything! SO much fun!. :) I'm having all these ideas and trying to figure out everything I need...the theme is cowgirl, horses, and roses. There's a million things I could do it's so neat. I've gotten dried rose petals I'm going to have to use somewhere and a dried rose bouquet...and a really neat horse head statue that's soooooooo pretty, it goes perfectly on my dresser. And a matching statue of a rearing horse...but it hasn't come in yet. Of course I am getting a bucket of used horseshoes from my neighbor, but she hasn't gotten them to me quite yet, oh my goodness I can do so much with that!... And I found Michael's old cowboy boots, his first set from when he was 2 and put them on top of the mirror on my dresser...like a frame on both sides. It's so cute! Mom got me a little boot picture frame that is perfect for a picture I just had printed of me and Michael... I have a few metal cowboy signs and such that I haven't yet designated a spot for, one is so sweet! It's black outline or a cowboy and girl hugging, aww! I think my walls are too big for most of them though so I'm going to have to think of some kind of arrangement with roses to add to it. Maybe I should check out what Walmart has in the way of roses. Or for one I could hang horseshoes around it when I get them, oh it's so awesome what all I could do with the horseshoes I'm ready for them to be here!

I also found on ebay a really cute picture 11 X 14 of a little cowgirl, about 6 years old, in a barn kneeling down praying. I thought of a plack to go with that that says "it's me again God" or something to that extent, so far I haven't had any luck finding that. I also have a 16x20 of a cowboy riding into the distance. *sighs* It's so romantic. And let's see, I got a horse bedspread that's of a mare and her colt running together and it has beautiful mountains in the background. I'm not exactly positively sure what to do with the curtains yet, I was thinking of making denim ones but I'm not sure. Then I thought of just draping something to make it look casual, but then denim is casual no matter how you do it... or I could do another fabric. So I'm still collecting my thoughts on the curtains. I thought about getting old latis that Daddy has and panting it rustic and putting barbed wire intertwined in it and using it as a picture board...hehe. But I don't know if I will get around to that or now, or where I would put it...I'm still thinking on that. The only thing that is throwing me now is ropes...I cannot figure out how I could decorate with ropes...I guess I'm not very creative. And then, oh my, yes. Then the bathroom! I'm getting this beautiful shower curtain, it's a huge picture of running horses, it's SOOOOOOOOO pretty, I LOVE it! And Daddy is putting up horse towel and toilet paper rack things for me. :D I thought about outlining the mirror in the bathroom with horseshoes but I'm not sure about that yet, I'll have to see when they get here.

Oh and about the theme, don't role your eyes (Allison)...Just be glad I didn't make it a nursery. hehe

Cowgirl is in my blood; my Grandaddy and Aunt:

P.S. Rachelle and Isaac got engaged Saturday. :)

6 months!

2007-12-06T17:34:00.000-06:00

McCabe, 6 months? NO WAY! That is impossible!? 3 1/2 maybe, max...I'm still telling people he's 3 months and all the sudden he's 6...

Aren't they the cutest kids in the world?

He makes all things beautiful

2007-12-02T13:46:00.000-06:00

In His time, in His time,

He makes all things beautiful, in His time,

Lord, please show me everyday,

As You’re teaching me Your way,

That You do just what You say, in Your time.

In Your time, in Your time,

You make all things beautiful, in Your time.

Lord, my life to Your I bring,

May each song I have to sing,

Be to You a lovely thing, in Your time.

Words and Music by Diana Ball

"You will also be a crown of beauty in the hand of the LORD, And a royal diadem in the hand of your God." Isaiah 62:3

Magnificent Obsession

2007-11-12T15:01:00.001-06:00

Deepen my passion Father! Strength our friendship and reestablish the power of the cross! I'm back at Your feet, take me to the hidden places of Your heart and fascinate me, overwhelm me with Your love. Obsess me Jesus, I cannot get enough of Your Spirit and Your presence...imprint Your fingers on my heart and Your Word on my tongue. Open up the Word to me and give me understanding, open my heart and pour Your ways into me. You are the Lion and You are the Lamb, let me see more of Your gentleness and great strength! Speak words of life to me, empower my spirit, I need You Jesus. With Your Words the mountains shake, may I shake with Your glory, for You alone are Savior! This is all that I want, I need to love to live for You.

Don't let the chains of my past entangle me, keep me free and let me stay here. Purify me, like a stone in the fire rid me of impurities, just let me see You. Cut these strands that hold me down to earthly things, I want it all to be for YOU! I hunger for You Lord, come let me worship forever. Let me sacrifice, I love You Jesus. My life, my desires, my dreams take my life and let me loose myself in the glory of Your presence. For what it's worth take my thoughts and actions and may You rule my innermost desires.

It's so satisfying to worship You, take me higher, closer to You into the riches of Your grace...take me to depths I've never been to Your glory and the splendor of Your love! Imprint Your thoughts into my soul, make us as one, Jesus I'm lost in You. This is everything I want, You are everything I need, I want this to be my one consuming passion. Everything my heart desires, Lord I want it all to be for You Jesus be my magnificent obsession!!!

2007-10-26T16:20:00.000-05:00

Another day just the same
Another night, still no change
Caught in the middle of
Where I am and where I should be
Inside I whisper Your name
Outside I barely maintain
Without Your strength in my life
I'm a lost soul, Lord, please send Your...

Rain

Wash away the

Pain

Take away the

Blame

I'm callin' out Your name!

Lord, I pray
Help me find a way
Way back to You

I'm on my knees beggin' You please
Every time I stumble

Lord, I pray
Help me find a way
Way back to You
You sacrificed, paid with Your life
Gave me the right
Lord, I pray

I know I'm weak and You. are. strong.
You give me faith to hold on
Lord, help me see that I'm stronger
When I'm down on my knees
'Cause that's where the power begins
Your boundless strength has no end
No matter what comes my way
I'll just persevere if I just...

Pray

It's the strength You give me

Pray
It comes so freely

Pray
I'm callin' out Your name, so...

Down on my knees I find You
Leavin' this world behind, and You
Always hear me when I
Need some answers, and I
Just can't seem to make it through
And I'm not sure what I should do
That's when I close my eyes
And, Lord, I pray

Lord, I pray
Help me find a way
Way back to You
I'm on my knees beggin' You please
Every time I stumble
Lord, I pray
Help me find a way
Way back to You
You sacrificed, paid with Your life
Gave me the right
Lord, I pray
-Avalon

Today's thoughts...

2007-10-18T10:56:00.000-05:00

Have you ever noticed that when you talk it seems like people don't even listen, like they are just waiting for you to get done with your sentence so they can say something? Or maybe they don't even wait for you to get done. Yup. Generally people don't want to hear what you have to say anyway...so why say it? I like to stick to asking questions. If you ask enough questions people will be asking what you have to say. Then they listen, for apparently you are hiding something from them.

Fear God

2007-10-12T10:10:00.000-05:00

Once upon a time there was a little girl who had many dreams. But God said, "No, I must form your dreams, I must give you words. I will work everything out if you will just fear Me."

"For in many dreams and in many words there is emptiness. Rather, fear God." Ecclesiastes 5:7

What do you want from me, God? Where are you leading?

McCabe...

2007-09-28T14:47:00.000-05:00

LOOK, Oh my goodness my baby is growing up!!! McCabe is 3 months already! How did that happen, was it not yesterday I watched him be born?

Oooooooh look how long he is...

Are they not the cutest thing EVER?

Movin' On

2007-09-27T18:18:00.000-05:00

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone
--Rascal Flatts

Bring that Child to Me

2007-09-20T20:23:00.000-05:00

Even though you never wanted
The child that grows in you
I know that you must be afraid
Of what you plan to do
But please before you let them take
This child before it's time
Would you hear what's on this heart of mine?

I am a barren woman
I cannot have a child
I've been a mother only in my dreams
And the child that grows inside of you
Could fill these empty arms
Please give him life
Then bring that child to me

There'll never be a child unwanted
As long as we are here
Your child could have a happy home
And we could dry our tears

I am a barren woman
I cannot have a child
I've been a mother only in my dreams
And the child you plan to throw away
Could fill these empty arms
Please let him live
Then bring that child to me

--Annie Chapman

Jonathan's paper

2007-09-16T20:02:00.000-05:00

YAY! This is a paper Jonathan had to write for his philosophy class. It is totally awesome, HE is totally awesome!!! :D He is sooooooooooooooooooooooo amazing. He's a thinker. *looks proud* Anyway here it is:
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What Is the Purpose of Philosophy?

Why do we have philosophy? Is it so we can talk idle and not ever actually learn anything as some would think? In The Elements of Logic, Simon Blackburn says,"For people who want to think about the big themes: Knowledge, reason, truth, mind, freedom, destiny, identity, God, goodness, justice." This answers the question about why we have philosophy I believe in a very effective way. It states that mankind wants to know about deep theological matters. By our nature we are curious and desire to know the truth. And that's what philosophy is. The search for truth.

Now we realize why we have philosophy. We know that we should understand about the deep theological issues. It is a widely known concept that the more you know about the world and the way things work the better off you will be. When you have knowledge you can often transpose that knowledge into invaluable wisdom. You can know how to ride a bike but if you understand the mechanism then you will know that when the chain comes off the gears you must put it back on before you continue. For one to realize that if he has knowledge he can translate into wisdom and be better off, he is already ahead of the crowd. Take for instance the simple man who always takes things for granted. He isn't interested in engaging his mind in order to have a brighter future. Instead he is interested in knowing as little as possible to get by. Such a man may find himself in an emergency that he would have known how to handle had he engaged his mind in understanding basic concepts on a deeper level. In the same way when we have insights to the deeper spiritual issues it greatly affects the way we live. If a man does not believe in God that will also affect his belief about morality therefore affecting the way he lives. It is absurd for us to think that we can separate our beliefs from our actions. Therefore philosophy has a purpose to find truth and understand why we believe what we believe.

This raises the classic question. What is truth? Since we as humans are often deceived, how do we know truth from falsehood? Is it really possible for an imperfect person to have perfection in all of his views by using philosophy? Is it possible for a human to always believe the truth and never believe a lie? No. Believing a lie is part of our natural habitat, however we must strive to expose the lies and expel them whenever possible. Rene Descartes states, "I shall efface even from my thoughts all the images of corporeal things, or at least I shall esteem them as vain." This makes an interesting point. Decartes is reexamining everything he knows to find any falsehood. This is certainly taking it to an extreme. It is unnecessary to reexamine everything we know. There are things that would be a much wiser use of our time than spending hours and hours and finally concluding that we really do have two hands and if you walk out in front of a car you will get hit and it wasn't just something you imagined. This is foolishness. A man who doubts if he has a hand even though he sees it, and uses it will perhaps never have any spiritual beliefs. For if he cannot believe something physical that he can experience how will he ever believe the truth about God and spiritual matters? The Bible says without faith it is impossible to please God. So what about you? Do you have faith?

In conclusion, there is a time for philosophy. And there is a time to believe and a wise man will know the difference.

Little Star

2007-09-15T13:20:00.000-05:00

Ok here is the music video that nobody could watch in the last format:

Happy Birthday Rachelle

2007-09-14T08:39:00.000-05:00

To my sister: I'm so glad God made us close. Over the years it's amazing to see, how intertwined we've become. It's even hard to remember what things I do because I like it...or you like it? Thanks for the godly example you've set for me, I pray one day I'll be as selfless as you are. Thanks for being ready to listen and quick to understand. I think the Lord's given us a special gift to be able to understand each other on a deep level. It's really a blessing, for we know most all before the other even opens her mouth. IYKWIM even our darkest moments we trust enough to share. Our friendship doubles our wardrobe and divides our calories. *cracks up* I sure do love you girl, may you always keep your eyes on the Lord! :D

Lord Jesus, thanks so much for Rachelle! May You be glorified in her life forever and ever and ever! Fill her to overflowing with Your Spirit and shower Your blessings into her life. Give her wisdom to discern Your leading and guide her with Your hand. Give her joy & fulfillment in You, and draw her close to You, reveal more of Yourself to her. May You give her everything pertaining to life and godliness and help her to be dilligent to seek You with all sincerity. I love You Jesus, in Christ's name I pray!

HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY RACHELLE!!!!!!!!!

Quotes

2007-09-13T13:16:00.000-05:00

"You should have God so big on the inside of you that His beautiful love, gorgeous goodness, and attractive acceptance emanates from you onto your family." -- Unknown

"Glances of true beauty can be seen in the faces of those who live in true meekness." Henry David Thoreau

"Love is the beauty of the soul." Augustine

"There is no cosmetic for beauty like happiness." Marguerite Gardiner

"Don't be moved by praise or criticism. Just go to God and find your identity in Him." Unknown

"Beauty without grace is the hook without the bait." Ralph Waldo Emerson

"People are like stained-glass windows: They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light within." Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

"Fair faces need no paint." Thomas Fuller

"The difference between pretty and beautiful is that pretty is temporal whereas beautiful is eternal." Unknown

"YOU cannot be anything but faithful
YOU cannot be anything but true
How I need this heavenly persective
Take my eyes off this world so I see You"
Eric & Leslie Ludy

PictureTrail

2007-09-08T12:24:00.000-05:00

Morning Meditations

2007-09-05T12:51:00.000-05:00

“He is before all things and in Him all things hold together. He is also head of the body, the church; and He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, so that He Himself will come to have first place in everything” Colossians 1:17-18

His thunder pierces, our tears fall hard

Death strikes and we’re forever marred

But the sting predicted as destiny

Evolved to His peace to create victory

For just as Christ is firstborn from the dead,

Of the body, the church, He is the head,

So He raises His saints with power divine

As His victory reigns His glory sublimes

Amid my ways, my dreams, my plans

The Father holds me in His hands

I fear not what He has for me

But shake in awe of what I see

I long to birth new lives in love

To watch a miracle from above

But His place is first in everything,

So all I give; to Him I cling

I gaze on Him, and my steps He prearranges,

For He is before all things, and never changes

In Him all things are held together

His grace, His goodness, He lasts forever!

Amid my ways, my dreams, my plans

The Father holds me in His hands

I fear not what He has for me

But shake in awe of what I see

Give me unadulterated love for Thee I cry,

As fall on my face before God on high

Worshiping Jesus, love is my duty

And I’m fully covered in His beauty

Perfecting Holiness

2007-08-14T10:17:00.001-05:00

"Therefore, having these promises, beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all defilement of flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God." 2 Cor. 7:1

Fingerprints of God

2007-08-09T14:08:00.001-05:00

This youtube is facinating! It reminds me of that Steven Curtis Chapman song "Fingerprints of God." I tell you what we have no reason to put little value on ourselves, we are created by God! Man, our God truly is awesome!!!!

Vows

2007-08-02T09:38:00.001-05:00

I ran across a really neat idea today...a couple who made their vows with scripture alone! That is A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!! BTW Kelly Brown (Bradrick) is such an inspiration, I have learned a lot from listening to her cds in past years.

The Vows:

GROOM
I, Peter David Bradrick, covenant before God and man, to you Kelly Jeannette to be your loving husband, and to lead you, to protect you, and provide for you in the fear of the Lord [1]. I vow to love you as my wife even as Christ also loved the church, to lay down my life for you [2]; to wash you with the water of the word [3]; to love you as my own body and to nourish and cherish you even as the Lord does the church; to render unto you the affection due you, knowing that I do not have authority over my own body but you do [4]; to dwell with you according to knowledge, giving honor unto you, as unto the weaker vessel, and living together with you as heirs together of the grace of life [5]. You alone will be my delight as the wife of my youth [6]. I will fight for you, for our sons, for our daughters, and for our household [7]. The Lord do so to me, and more also, if anything but death parts you and me [8]. I will be yours in times of plenty and in times of want, in times of sickness and in times of health, in times of joy and in times of sorrow, in times of failure and in times of triumph. I pledge to you my life as a loyal and faithful husband [9].

1 Timothy 5:8, Ephesians 5:25, Ephesians 5:26, 1 Corinthians 7:4, 1 Peter 3:7, Proverbs 5:18, Nehemiah 4:14, Ruth 1:17, Hosea 2:19-20

BRIDE
I, Kelly Jeannette, covenant before God and man, to you Peter David Bradrick to be your loyal wife and to submit myself under your headship [10]. Just as the Church is subject to Christ [11], so I will be to you in everything. I will live first unto our God and then unto you, loving you, caring for you, obeying you, and ever seeking to please you as my earthly lord [12]. I will be your discreet, chaste keeper at home [13], diligently, industriously, and faithfully caring for the affairs of your household so that your heart may always safely trust in me [14]. If the Lord chooses to so bless us, it will be my delight to be your fruitful bearer [15] of children, and I will help you diligently teach them the commandments of the Lord as we talk of them in your house, as we walk by the way, when we lie down, and when we rise up [16]. Wherever you go, I will go; and wherever you lodge, I will lodge; your people shall be my people, And your God, my God [17]. The Lord do so to me, and more also, If anything but death parts you and me [18]. I will be yours in times of plenty and in times of want, in times of sickness and in times of health, in times of joy and in times of sorrow, in times of failure and in times of triumph, I pledge to you my life as an obedient and faithful wife.

Ephesians 5:22, Ephesians 5:24-25, 1 Peter 3:6, Titus 2:5, Proverbs 31:11, Psalms 128:3, Deuteronomy 6:7; 11:19, Ruth 1:16, Ruth 1:17

[1] 1 Timothy 5:8
[2] Ephesians 5:25
[3] Ephesians 5:26
[4] 1 Corinthians 7:4
[5] 1 Peter 3:7
[6] Proverbs 5:18
[7] Nehemiah 4:14
[8] Ruth 1:17
[9] Hosea 2:19-20
[10] Ephesians 5:22
[11] Ephesians 5:24-25
[12] 1 Peter 3:6
[13] Titus 2:5
[14] Proverbs 31:11
[15] Psalms 128:3
[16] Deuteronomy 6:7; 11:19
[17] Ruth 1:16
[18] Ruth 1:17

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The Schmidts Summer 2007

2007-07-30T09:39:00.001-05:00

For Allison (and whoever else wants to see them):

Yay! I had an awesome weekend!!! Here are the pictures I promised...

Misty, my best friend of 9 years, she's so beautiful:

Mr. Mark & Jennifer snuggling:

Mrs. Linda & Charissa:

Typical Daniel --the thinker:

Oh my WORD what happened to the little boys?! When they stand up it's like WOW how did you get way up there? Michael & Paul:

Jennifer & Rachelle, wow Jenn's growing up:

Joseph Hudson, my boy:

And Isaac:

Niecee

2007-07-25T12:14:00.001-05:00

Friends are awesome.

Thanks for being so sweet to me.

YOU ROCK.

May God continue to mold you...and may He fill you with His peace and strength to continue following Him.

I love you, girly!!

East to West

2007-07-20T12:13:00.000-05:00

Ever feel like you're sinking back into your past? I can identify very well with this song. Casting Crowns is so inspiring, their songs are real. :)

"Therefore there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." Romans 8:1

Linger

2007-07-16T11:57:00.000-05:00

"Linger too long in the stench of your hurt, and you'll smell like the toxin you despise."
Max Lucado

My place in this world

2007-07-11T12:52:00.000-05:00

The wind is moving
But I am standing still
A life of pages
Waiting to be filled
A heart that's hopeful
A head that's full of dreams
But this becoming
Is harder than it seems
Feels like I'm

Looking for a reason
Roaming through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need Your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

If there are millions
Down on their knees
Among the many
Can you still hear me
Hear me asking
Where do I belong
Is there a vision
That I can call my own
Show me I'm

Looking for a reason
Roaming through the night to find
My place in this world
My place in this world
Not a lot to lean on
I need Your light to help me find
My place in this world
My place in this world

--Michael W. Smith

My favorite quotes

2007-07-09T12:31:00.001-05:00

Some of my favorite quotes from Dad:

When you look at the Bible you have to keep things in perspective; major in the majors, minor in the minors.

Would it stimulate you to follow Christ more? What’s your purpose in doing it?

If you were to have a serious accident doing that, are you prepared to praise the Lord for the rest of your life with whatever happened?

Have you ever noticed how trashy your Mothers mind is? All she ever thinks about is taking out that trash and doing dirty laundry. HEHEHEHE

You don't call an alligator a lizard, you don't call a man a boy!

Me: guess WHAT?

Dad: God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life????

Most frequent quote: please come in here

Some of my favorite quotes from Mom:

Remember honey, the hand of the diligent shall rule, but the slack hand shall be put to force labor.

Well bless your pea picking heart! (I still say my heart don’t pick peas, it’s my hands…hehe)

...life's not always fair

Mom: oh, did you get this out? *picks up towel*

Me: no

Mom: well thanks for putting it up!

Me: oh...right… you’re welcome *puts up towel*

You don’t get what you whine for…work’s good for ya, it’ll build character!

Mom: you deserted us?

Me: well not technically, I didn’t volunteer to work on it

Mom: no you didn't, I drafted you

Oh no! I’m out of the loop! You haven’t told me about this?!!

Who says you need a pool of young men to choose from anyway, it only takes one you know, and God is more than capable of bringing the right one.

But some people don't have food, just think what a great blessing it is to have this soup again! We need to be thankful for it.

Most frequent quote: time for kitchen clean up!!!

How much time will that buy me?

2007-07-03T17:24:00.000-05:00

Like it? I love this song...it gets it's point across. :)

Puddles '07

2007-06-19T08:50:00.001-05:00

This past weekend Ashleigh and Hannah and Mrs. Alice came to spend a few days with us, we had lots of fun! It was great getting to see y'all, you are welcome back! :D

My blackmail picture: yay! let's be happy!

Me and Ashleigh:
Me and Hannah:

My beauty queen:
My Boys:

Dancing:

The famous foot shot:

Side note
Special prayer request; my arm/wrist nerves they are not too happy today

She don't know

2007-06-14T16:11:00.000-05:00

This song reminds me so much of you. hehehe. You're beautiful mylady. :D

Satisfied

2007-06-05T10:15:00.000-05:00

God is most glorified in us when we are most satisfied in Him. - John Piper

am NOT

2007-05-31T19:31:00.001-05:00

Yes! I mean NO! Josh Turner, my favorite singer in the world, is going to be in concert an hour from me tonight. But I'm not going. :D Nope, nada. NOT going. In the weakness of the moment I don't want to change my mind, so I'm blogging it for proof, I am not going. ok? hehehe

Just as we also long to see you...

2007-05-23T13:13:00.000-05:00

"For this reason, when I could endure it no longer, I also sent to find out about your faith, for fear that the tempter might have tempted you, and our labor would be in vain.

But now that Timothy has come to us from you, and has brought us good news of your faith and love, and that you always think kindly of us, longing to see us just as we also long to see you, for this reason, brethren, in all our distress and affliction we were comforted about you through your faith; for now we really live, if you stand firm in the Lord. For what thanks can we render to God for you in return for all the joy with which we rejoice before our God on your account, as we night and day keep praying most earnestly that we may see your face, and may complete what is lacking in your faith?

Now may our God and Father Himself and Jesus our Lord direct our way to you; and may the Lord cause you to increase and abound in love for one another, and for all people, just as we also do for you; so that He may establish your hearts without blame in holiness before our God and Father at the coming of our Lord Jesus with all His saints. " 1 Thessalonians 3:5-13

WOW!!! I know EXACTLY how he feels!!! There are people I do that with too, and it's an unexpressable joy and peace when I hear they are walking in the truth. It's funny how things from the Bible come alive to me all the sudden, when I've been reading that same passage for years and it's never hit me that way before...lol.

Where The Green Grass Grows

2007-05-22T13:24:00.000-05:00

Six lanes, taillights
Red ants marchin' into the night
They disappear to the left and right again
Another supper from a sack
A ninety-nine cent heart attack
I got a poundin' head and an achin' back
And the camel's buried in a big straw stack

I'm gonna live where the green grass grows
Watchin' my corn pop up in rows
Every night be tucked in close to you
Raise our kids where the good Lord's best
Point our rocking chairs towards the west
Plant our dreams where the peaceful river flows
Where the green grass grows

Well I'm from a map dot
A stop sign on a black top
I caught the first bus I could hop from there
But all of this glitter is gettin' dark
There's concrete growin' in the city park
I don't know who my neighbors are
But there's bars on the corners and bars on my heart

--Tim McGraw

Release Me

2007-05-18T10:44:00.001-05:00

Why is my heart deeply troubled
With feelings of sadness and grief?
Though my life seems to be without
Real turmoil and pressing needs

Yet I feel so grieved inside
With feelings of giving up
A sense of real hopelessness
Has crowded out God’s love

Release me Lord I ask of thee
I don’t want to stay this way
Fill me again with your Holy Spirit
And deliver me I pray

May I again be filled with joy
And know your loving grace
May the spirit of heaviness over me
Be replaced with the garment of praise

I shall arise and sing your praises
And lift my hands to you
And declare aloud your faithfulness
In the wondrous works you do

Be gone you father of iniquities
You no longer have a hold
For greater is He that is in me
The redeemer of my soul

I will not give in to Satan’s attacks
Nor allow him the chance to bind
For Christ has already set me free
And released my troubled mind

My hope shall always be in God
In Him alone will I trust
His joy again will flood my soul
And my heart will be filled with love.

© By M.S.Lowndes.

"Lord Jesus, here I am before you again. I come dirty, stained, bruised, and cut up. You ask me, 'What happened, my Child?' With a bowed head, I admit that last night the enemy came. I wasn’t prepared for them, and so. . . here I am. They were able to get in and claim territory in my mind, but I don’t want then there! I want to claim the land back. I want to pick my guard back up, but I’m weary of the fight. I need rest and strength to prepare me for the battle. Come to my deliverance, Lord! I’m in desperate need of your strength and you! Here, take my bag of trash that the enemy gave me. I don’t want to walk around with its weight and smell on me anymore. I’m ready to be set free; I’m ready to pick my sword back up and get back in the fight.

My Lord arose slowly, and looking straight into my eyes said, 'Do not grow weary in well doing, for in due season you shall reap, if you do not lose heart.' He picked up my trash bag and flung it behind his back. Then in exchange for me filthy, torn clothes, he clothed me in a gown of pure and spotless white. He washed away the dirt on my hands and face, and healed the scratches and wounds I had received the night before. He himself put on new shining armor on me and placed in my hands a two edged sword, and said, 'Now you are ready to get back in the fight. Go now, and my strength will be with you. Remember to come back this afternoon for a time of refreshing.'

Away I marched, back out to the battle field with the name of Jesus lifted high. I was ready to reclaim that captured territory as my own.”

--Undisclosed

Like a Rock

2007-05-07T17:50:00.000-05:00

It crowds over me

Like a rock on my heart…

I’m not strong enough

Suddenly powerless

I just left this place,

Why am I here again?

I just cannot do it alone

So why do I even try?

No you cannot,

Comes the reply.

I recall being here before…

Surrender it to Me!

My strength is unlimited

And My yoke light.

Look at Me, Jessica

Trust Me…

Finally ready to lay it down

I look into Your eyes

And see what I’ve missed

I wonder why, my Love,

You put up with me at all?

And as the tears hit my pillow

I open my clinched fists

And let it go once again

Love's Colliding Joy

2007-05-03T10:31:00.000-05:00

This blog is specifically for Allison. SOMEBODY needs to figure out what's the matter with our attachments. hehehe

So to my sweet girl: here's your pictures my dear hope you enjoy them. Monday night or die, hope we get off from work early, I'm missing you so bad. :D Love you. May the Lord bless you with wisdom and faith and provide for every need and form you into His image. May doubts be overwhelmed in the reality of His love and ability to make you happy and content, and may you truely understand the height and depth of His great love for you!!! May He keep you encouraged and show you how beautiful you are... May He be your everything and may you find even more peace in Him than you ever expected, even through hard circumstances. May He shower your family with every spiritual blessing and make y'all close to each other and knit you together in love, in one accord focused on Christ completely! So be it in Jesus name!!!

Entering Mississippi!!! See the river out the window?

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

before graduation

Graduation!

Group shot the next day at AFR...hahaha

ummm we were having fun if you cannot tell. I don't even remember what was so funny anymore.

Wow how did he get to be way up there? -- at Elvis' memorial fountain

We three girls *bursts into song*

Me and Elvis at 13:

Random sweet kids:

Coolie, Chupelo has a starbucks!!!

Just Another Day in Paradise

2007-05-01T14:23:00.000-05:00

Just Another Day in Paradise

The kids screaming, phone ringing
Dog barking at the mailman bringing
That stack of bills - overdue
Good morning baby, how are you?
Got a half hour, quick shower
Take a drink of milk but the milk's gone sour
My funny face makes you laugh
Twist the top on and I put it back
There goes the washing machine
Baby, don't kick it.
I promise I'll fix it
Long about a million other things

Well, it's ok. It's so nice
It's just another day in paradise
Well, there's no place that
I'd rather be
Well, it's two hearts
And one dream
I wouldn't trade it for anything
And I ask the Lord every night
For just another day in paradise

Friday, you're late
Guess we'll never make our dinner date
At the restaurant you start to cry
Baby, we'll just improvise
Well, plan B looks like
Dominoes' pizza in the candle light
Then we'll tippy toe to our room to
Make a little love that's overdue
But somebody had a bad dream
Mama and daddy
Can me and my teddy
Come in to sleep in between?

Yeah it's ok. It's so nice.
It's just another day in paradise.
Well, there's no place that
I'd rather be
Well, it's two hearts
And one dream
I wouldn't trade it for anything
And I ask the Lord every night
For just another day in paradise

Well, it's ok. It's so nice.
It's just another day in paradise.
Well, there's no place that
I'd rather be
Two hearts
And one dream
I wouldn't trade it for anything
And I ask the Lord every night
For just another day in paradise

For just another day in paradise
Well, it's the kids screaming. The phone ringing
Just another day
Well, it's Friday. You're late
Oh yeah, it's just another day in paradise

--Phil Vassar

Rambling

2007-04-30T12:03:00.000-05:00

Yay it's Monday!!! Well, let's be as optimistic about it as possible. :P

Okay, random update...we spent the weekend with Hannah!!! SO SO SO SO SO awesome, we had a great time!! It was so good to be together again. :D It was a big blast, although I think we drove Denise crazy on the way up there with 5 hours of country music. :P We had an awesome time with Hannah, that was sooooooooooo special I love you so much girly!! :) We played twister and volley ball and went to the park and Elvis' birthplace and AFR and had our *ehrm* her man time and talked and laughed and cried and ummm *thinks* just hung out and had lots of fun...:P And I got to meet Christa and Lana and Julie and Hannah Riley and Lacy and Sydney and Remington Gage all the people I hear about all the time...:) Thank you so much Robertson's for your hospitality, it was GREAT!!!

Kathleen surprised us by coming as well so we got to meet her, that was cool! Except that she got stranded outside of town and Zak had to go get her so they both missed the graduation...:O But nonetheless it was good to get to meet and spend some time with her. :)

On the way home we played "Only the days that end in Y" for the last 2 hours...hmmm that was interesting. HEHEHEHEHE. Woo we were so hyper righto Denise? :P That was great fun. :D

We went to a funeral this morning, Benjamin's Grandma, Mrs. Clara died so...everybody was torn up about that.

OH!! I have so AWESOMELY exciting news too!!!!!!!!!! Mrs. Opal is our neighbor and we have been witnessing to her for...ummm... 9 odd years, at least. She's always rejected and been real stubborn about letting us know that she is a good person and went to church some etc... She is 92 and basically on her death bed this week, and they tell me she got saved Friday!!!! Our new pastor witnessed to her in the hospital and led her to Christ...and she says now that she's just ready to go to meet her Master. :D WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God is GOOD amen?!!!!!!!!

I think I'm going to go hear Kristen speak tonight...that would be neat because I haven't seen her for like ...forever... what 5 years? Something like that...she's going to be like 20 mins from my house tonight so I'm going to go see her, probably. If I'm not still dead tired. :P

Ok, I know I'm being random, I should go finish entering this company...*waves dramatically*

Worth it

2007-04-25T10:39:00.000-05:00

"To hang between two thieves in the darkness, Love had to believe you're worth it!"
Nichole Nordeman

Blasted Hackers

2007-04-24T15:00:00.000-05:00

Yay this is my new blog!!! Hackers got into my last one and I thought it easier to start from scratch than undo what they destroyed. So here I am, the comment section is for welcomes. ;)

Anybody know how to do smiley faces on this thingy? I cannot find them. :D